I’ve had a little wine so I wanted to share that after Tuxedo Pearl and some other things I decided to go try on some suit pieces and while mostly that left me wanting to cry over the fact that I’ll never have a blazer that fits without it being tailored, I liked how these looked together even though that vest and shirt absolutely do not fit either. ACTUALLY ALMOST BOUGHT THOSE PANTS THOUGH. Other than being a little long they were an A+ fit, tight in way that worked (I think so, at least).

Sometimes I forget that butch isn’t a term a lot of people are used to using casually

But I self-described as such to my coworker today and he only laughed because I was suggesting it as the way to distinguish me to managers who always mix up names and the idea of telling the boss “no no the butch lesbian” is honestly p funny

captainsnumple replied to your post “One of the sadder things I’ve noticed lately is that when customers…”

And yeah, it saddens me, kinda, that parents teach very little kids
that a girl or woman that is not feminine is wrong and bad. I heard kids
as young as three asking their parents ‘this girl is ugly right dad?’
about me, and while YES I KNOW, I doubt that they meant my face or
figure, and it’s really disgusting that children who barely know how to
speak has already learnt that short haircut and ‘men’ clothes makes a
girl or a woman ugly and bad

I want to say I feel you on all the toy stuff, and also yes this! Nothing makes me sadder than hearing it from young kids, because I want them to be taught better. The worst time for me was one time a little girl was SCARED of me in line for the bathroom. My fragile feelings took a big hit
captainsnumple replied to your post “One of the sadder things I’ve noticed lately is that when customers…”

You know, I remember myself being tiny and BELIEVE ME SAM NO MATTER WHAT ASSHOLE PARENTS DO AND THINK, THERE ARE LITTLE GIRLS WHO WANT TO BE LIKE YOU AND THEIR LITTLE HEARTS JUMP WHEN THEY SEE YOU

THANK YOU SNUMPS THIS IS HONESTLY ONE OF THE THOUGHTS THAT KEEPS ME GOING. It’s one of my dearest hopes, especially working kids’ events, that little girls will see me and get a little more hope that looking like this is okay

One of the sadder things I’ve noticed lately is that when customers ask for things a little girl might like, if I suggest anything based on what I liked as a kid that isn’t overtly feminine, they get a certain look on their face and ignore what I say and it always kind of feels like they don’t want their little girl to turn out like me

I am… 80% sure I just fielded a veiled gal pals question (”are you close friends? really close? close close?”) and I am SCREAMING

THANKS BUDDY ALSO PLEASE DON’T TAKE MY EMBARRASSMENT TO MEAN SOMETHING IT DOESN’T

(also dang it, this plays into the frustration/confusion over the fact that she actually sort of said not yet rather than nah bro just friends and even though I know it’s healthier to treat that as a rejection part of my brain is still like. not yet. And now someone is asking, and that’s probably just because she posted some cute pics of us, but UGH)

docholligay

 

So if I was a Gym Leader in Pokemon, I’d def have…

ahahah when I saw that picture of you in a flower crown, I was like “Disney’s first butch princess” THE ANIMALS WILL SING TO YOU

awww you flatter me, Doc

also I was more than a little ridiculous that day, I had it on from the moment my boss brought them until I got all the way home. I LIKE FLOWER CROWNS A LOT. I should probably buy myself one of the nicer ones and just wear it around for the summer