Fusion is very important to her
Fusion IS EVERYTHING to her
It’s what she IS
If the lyrics of the extended theme song are anything to go by, back home fusion is looked down on. On Earth she’s free to exist as the combination of Ruby and Sapphire
“I will fight for the place where I’m free/to live together and exist as me”
In “Keeping It Together” She was emotionally destroyed to see what Homeworld thought of fusions and the mockery they made of it with the Gem Cluster, and it nearly made them destabilize…
and now…
In Garnet’s eyes, her own friends don’t even respect fusion. They only see it as a way to make themselves feel important and strong. Pearl and Amethyst see fusion as a means to their own end.
She feels they don’t respect fusion
She feels they don’t respect HER…
MAN this is super good and important and i love it.
to garnet, fusion is an honest, genuine, mutual union – it means the world to her. to realize that pearl had dishonest motives behind it, that it WASN’T equal or genuine, that pearl – in a way strikingly similar to the homeworld’s methods – was using it as a way to feel stronger, without considering garnet’s feelings…. yeah, god, that must hurt. it hurts so much that the only way she can feel about it is livid, without realizing what it really meant to pearl.
yes, she used garnet, and that was wrong no matter how you look at it – but she did it because of her feelings for her. she was just so desperate for that unity and wholeness and all that garnet believes fusion is for. it wasn’t really about power at all – it was about feeling safe and loved and yes, strong, but not physically, emotionally.
but as garnet said, the key to fusion is ‘get open. get honest’. and pearl didn’t. pearl exploited her emotionally, in a way that must’ve hit all the deeper after the events of keeping it together.
god, this is such a beautiful, devastating mess.
Tag: steven universe spoilers
Can we talk about Amethyst in this episode though? She usually clashes so often with Pearl, but in this case she literally defended her when Pearl admitted that she lied. And remember that part… where Amethyst looks down a bit sadly and says “No, I don’t think that’s it” when Steven asks if Pearl wanted to learn about the communication hub. And I think it’s because Amethyst relates to her. She really gets Pearl, because she feels the same way herself.
She basically says, “We both feel stronger with you” and I think it’s because fusing with Garnet makes them both feel like they’re loved, and Pearl wanted to keep doing that. Amethyst feels the same way. Both of them struggle with serious issues of inferiority and feeling unwanted, and fusing with Garnet seems to alleviate that, if even a little.
So now that Pearl is fusing with Garnet, we can expect a Hall Om Mig amv to pop up soon, right?
Garnet: I will fight because I’m gay
Pearl: I will fight because I’m also gay
Amethyst: I will fight because I FUCKING LIVE HERE HONESTLY YOU GUYS
Okay but. Pearl and Rose fuse into Rainbow Quartz.
Rainbow Quartz.
Now tell me Pearl is straight and has only platonic feelings for Rose.
Spoiler Warning- A Thought After Sworn to the Sword
Pearl initially thinks Connie is too young to train in sword fighting, but then says that she was only a few thousand years old when she started fighting for Rose (I can’t remember the exact wording).
But what gets me about that, besides it being a cute sort of joke, is that it places a few thousand years as a possible gem equivalent to Connie’s age, probably just a little older.
So imagine a barely adolescent or pre-adolescent Pearl falling so in love with Rose that she changed her whole life. And adult Pearl still has those feelings and stands by them and the choices she’s made.
This ship might be the end of me.
THAT’S OKAY I WANTED TO CRY OVER PEARL WANTING TO GIVE HER LIFE TO KEEP ROSE SAFE TODAY
THAT’S FINE
I’LL JUST TAKE THIS SONG ABOUT DOING ANYTHING FOR ROSE AND BE A-OKAY.
SittingOverHereDreaming 