đŸ”„ Sailor Moon

While S is probably the best season for character writing and stuff, it and all versions of the arc make very little sense. I think part of it is it features pretty much the only bad guy without any personal connection to Usagi/Serenity.  And then in the anime, it doesn’t make sense that Saturn awakens and then only destroys the bad guy instead of the world, but in versions where she does destroy the world, it’s so dramatically unsatisfying that Usagi can just undo it. AND WHY DO THE TALISMANS WORK LIKE THEY DO? WHY DO THEY EXIST?

All versions and all seasons have problems, but I think S is the hardest to parse out and smooth over the plot holes, even though it’s always held up as the pinnacle of Sailor Moon writing

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I cannot wait to see this. In fact I cannot believe I have waited to see this, tbh. I’m gonna have to try to go this week.

I’M SO EXCITED FOR YOU TO SEE IT. It’s such a fun movie!

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SAM AS SOMEONE WHO HAS THOUGHT AND FELT ALL OF THE THINGS YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT EVERY TIME I HAVE TO LOOK AT A GIRL I THINK IS CUTE, I am also on Team Ask here. Snumple’s right about the distracting/missing things stuff, also we are all shy scared creatures deep down and if I had a dollar for every time someone I was scared to make a move on was feeling the exact same way, I’d be able to buy at least two meals at Burger King.
SO I SUPPORT YOU IN WHATEVER YOUR  DECISION IS AND ALSO IN THE FEELINGS
OF THE MOMENT but also sometimes it helps to remember that asking not
only ends the anticipation, but also it often ends the general air of
awkwardness for all parties, especially when both parties are cuties

OMG ROSE I LOVE THE AT LEAST TWO MEALS FROM BURGER KING MEASUREMENT. Also yeah that’s a GREAT point, one thing I’ve been trying to remember every time I start on “she probably doesn’t like me so I better not” thoughts is if she DOES like me she’s probably thinking the same thing (most things that make me think that are things I also do/did)

AND THANK YOU. I will try to remember that. I’d IMAGINE awkwardness will indeed go away once I don’t have the Kill Bill sirens playing in my head every time I do something vaguely flirty 😛

Sparkle Sparkle It’s a Fic :D

My sparklee is none other than @rosepetalrevolution, and as soon as I saw the prompt “PMMM-style AU”, I knew what I had to write. I had a lot of fun with it (and a lot of trouble, lol) so I hope you enjoy it! ~2400 words, and I’d call this BroTP focused, though HaruMichi and Reinako are present.

Minako Magica

“Listen, there’s something off about her lately. “

Haruka rolled her eyes and kept walking. “I’m not asking you two to get along. But—“

“This isn’t about me.” Mina dug her nails into her palm. “I’m worried for you.” There was something in the back of her mind she couldn’t quite call forward. Whenever she saw Michiru, the hairs on the back of her neck prickled and her body tensed as if ready to fight. Something had changed. Minako had never been afraid of the girl, no matter what power her family’s money gave her. “You can feel it too, however much you want to ignore it.”

“She’s
 she’s just Michiru.”

Mina noted it wasn’t a no. “Haruka
”

The sunny road around them went dark. Purple shadows danced around them like snakes charmed out of the darkness. Images of smiling faces rained down from a domed black sky.

The most startling thing, to Mina, was that it didn’t feel startling at all. Her immediate thought was Not again and her hand reached for something on her belt that wasn’t there.

Haruka’s back pressed up to hers, and she knew she felt the same way. “What the hell?”

“Another witch.” The words were out before Mina could process them. Another? When had she faced this unreality before?

The shadow struck at them. Despite their insubstantial appearance, every hit they landed stung.  Mina and Haruka split to dodge.

“What do we do?”

“Run,” Mina called out.
“Where? There’s no end!”

“There has to be.” Mina spun around the way they came, but it was the same rounded darkness as in front of them.

“Stay still!” a sharp voice called out. A stream of arrows followed, piecing each shadow and dissolving it into a poof a glitter.

“I’m surprised Miss Deathbringer herself hasn’t come to save you,” came a deeper voice, soon followed by the appearance of a tall brunette girl. Her muscular frame was offset by a green dress bedecked by pink bows and frills but matched by the large hammer slung over her shoulder.

“She’ll be coming.” A smaller girl with streaming black hair leapt down from somewhere Mina couldn’t see. Her outfit was simpler, a long white tunic with a red sash, but she too carried a weapon– a long, exquisitely curved black bow. A bright red jewel was set into the strap of her quiver. “She has felt the danger now.”

“What is going on?”

The new comers turned to Haruka. “It’s a witch,” the larger one said.

The smaller one, who, Mina couldn’t help but notice, was strikingly pretty, squared her shoulders. “You don’t want to know anything more than that.”

“We do.” Mina faced her. “There’s something that’s been happening for awhile, and you’re going to explain it.”

The girl’s eyes narrowed. “I don’t take orders from you now.”

“Rei. We don’t have time.”

She scowled. “Fine. They’ll have to come with us.” Her hand wrapped around Mina’s wrist. A spark leapt up her arm, from a memory she couldn’t grasp or something else Mina couldn’t be sure. They ran forward until the shadows broke upon a larger dome. At the center a dark mass writhed and twisted, flickering like static.

“Mako, go left.” The larger girl nodded and darted away. “You two, stay close.” Rei drew an arrow.

“Aim true,” Mina said automatically.

The smallest smile played on Rei’s lips. “Always.” Her shot landed at the heart of the writhing mass. A screech like crumpling metal washed over them. “And Michiru will be coming right about
 now.”

Mina didn’t see her at first. It took a long moment for her eyes to notice the dot of green amongst the black. Her outfit called to mind a Victorian mourning dress, though it was short enough to show her knee high black boots. She bore no weapon. One pale hand reached out to the shadow.

They were back in the light of day.

Michiru picked something up from the street. Mako’s hammer slammed down next to her. “We kept her safe, so you’ll share.”

“Naturally. I’d think you’d be more trusting by now.” She handed the thing, a small black needle with a stylized eye, over. Mina noticed how careful they were not to touch each other.

“I told you something was up with your girlfr
” Mina turned back to Haruka. Her face was in her hands, her whole body was shaking. “What’s wrong?”

“You
 you
”

“Minako. You need to leave.” Rei grabbed at her arm, but she shrugged her off.

“Buddy, you gotta talk to me, come on.” Mina reached out to pat Haruka’s shoulder.

“Don’t touch me!” Haruka reeled back, her eyes wide and full of tears. “I remember
 I remember what you did
 you were
 I
 I
”

“Haruka.” Michiru’s voice was sharp and soft at the same time in a way Minako could not comprehend. “None of that matters. It no longer happened.”

“I remember,” she repeated as though she hadn’t heard. “I remember.” Something glowed at her chest, a pure yellow rapidly blotted out with darkness.

“No.” Michiru dove for her, but Mako tackled her down.

“Rei!”

Before she could draw an arrow, the light exploded. The same sort of needle Michiru had held a moment ago appeared and burst open. The street again was gone, replaced by a tumultuous but shallow sea. An island of swords lay before them, pinning down something the water hid from view.  Where the light hit each blade a different memory played. Mina and Haruka as kids in the park, Mina and Haruka passing notes at school. Mina and Haruka fighting back to back in gaudy capes.

Mina could not remember the latter.

She felt its vital importance.

“You will tell me what is going on. Now.”

“And then there will be three witches,” Michiru spat from under Mako. “But go on, find out, maybe then you can help protect her for once.”

“No one else is turning.” Mako pressed the first needle to the gem on Michiru’s waist clasp. “Not you, not her.”

“I won’t let you kill Haruka.”

“She’s gone. For good this time.”

Michiru threw Mako off with a strength Minako wouldn’t have believed had she not seen it. Mako’s skin was gray where Michiru’s hands had touched her. She lay panting in the water. Michiru approached the island of swords.

“Let her go,” Rei said quietly. “There’s nothing she can do.” Her eyes landed on Mina’s with unparalleled intensity. “She might be right about you though. It’s not a pleasant memory. And if Haruka can become a witch without being a magical girl, even I can’t know what may happen with you.”

“Have an arrow ready.”

“You couldn’t forget your role as commander, could you?” Rei grunted, but she drew an arrow and pressed it into Mina’s chest with one hand.

“Might as well cop a feel, might be your last chance.”

Rei did not smile. “Are you ready?”

“Absolutely.”

She touched her other hand to Mina’s forehead. The truth opened up in her mind like a storybook. Kyubey’s approach, Mina convincing Haruka to make a wish with her. “We’ll be heroes, isn’t that what you always wanted?” I wish to never be overshadowed, I wish to be admired. She’d hounded Haruka for her wish.

“If I tell you, it won’t come true.”

“That’s not how this works, dummy.”

Kyubey agreed, but Haruka never gave in.

They fought for months just the two of them, back to back, side by side. It was glorious. Mina won talent show after talent show. That was glorious. All life had to offer was theirs. Other magical girls began joining them. Minako lead, and they listened. Rei bickered, but it was charged with something more than insubordination. Minako delighted in the inevitable end of their games.

It was right, until it all went wrong.

Nothing had felt dangerous, really, not until Ami’s soul gem lay shattered next to the grief seed of their latest kill. Doubts crept into Mina’s mind.

And then she found her sister, small precious Usagi, in the belly of a witch.

“Look, Mina! Now I’m just like you!”

I wish to be admired.

The witch launched a bolt through Usagi’s chest. Her eyes went wide as blood poured over the costume that replicated Minako’s so closely.

Minako lead, and people followed her straight unto their deaths.

The echo of her despair washed over her now, how her grief had hatched from her body into something so big and destructive she could only remember spurts. But she remembered Haruka pleading, and she remembered Haruka crumpled at what might have been her feet. Michiru came, and then Kyubey.

“What would you do to bring her back?”

“Anything.”

Mina gripped Rei’s fist, pressed the arrow tip hard against her sternum, but her grief did not hatch a second time. She had killed Haruka, had as good as killed Ami and Usagi, and it hurt but she did not change.

“We’ll fix this.”

Kyubey appeared in the water. “You’ve all made your wishes.”

Mako’s hammer slammed down on him. “Damn you for misleading us all.” Her knuckles were white against the hammer. “He’d lead us all into despair. Don’t give him the satisfaction.”

“We can’t save her,” Rei said. She lacked gentleness, always had, but Mina felt her trying. “I doubt, even, that we can save Michiru.”

The green haired girl stood in the surf. The swords had begun to awaken. They lifted themselves slowly, playing images now of Haruka reaching for Michiru, and Michiru turning away. Michiru keeping her hands in her pockets as they walked. Haruka trying, trying to figure out what changed, to figure out what she’d done.

“I did it for you. It was the only way.”

A sword launched at her, and for a moment Minako was sure she would not dodge. Michiru turned just in time. The blade buried itself in the water.

Michiru’s gem clouded again. “Please, Haruka.”

Minako clenched her fists. The power she’d once had would not come now. It hardly mattered. “We will save Michiru. It’s what Haruka would have wanted.”

Rei sighed, but a spark of determination flitted across her eyes. “Go.”

Minako made her way towards the swords. “It’s me you want, not her. I did this to you, to her, it’s my fault.”

The swords stilled. Minako had the brief thought that maybe reason could work, maybe Kyubey had always lied about being able to talk down witches. But then the thing beneath the swords ripped itself up.

It dripped like water—no, too thick, like blood. Hunks of it stayed pinned beneath the blades, but it was doggish in shape, with navy goop instead of fur. Luminous yellow eyes bore down on Minako.

To Michiru’s credit, she did not flinch away.

Every drip hissed as it hit the water. Minako had a sinking feeling she would find out what sound it would make when it hit skin. “I’m sorry isn’t enough, I know. I should never have convinced you to do this. I should never have done it.”

One large paw shot out. Mina dodged and the whole thing fell into the water, only strings of liquid holding it to the main body.

“I can’t blame you for lashing out. I did the same thing.”

Michiru touched the fallen paw. It shrank down and disappeared. “I have become ruinous. I should have told you, but I didn’t want you to remember.”

The doggish shape whined. The swords turned upwards from the ground and pierced its underbelly. Dark goo poured down. The shape lashed out at them again, again. It struck Michiru. She fell with a bright white burn contorting her face. The beast turned on itself, contorting into painful shapes to bite its own flesh.

“Haruka,” Michiru breathed.

Two realizations hit Minako—one, that this really was still Haruka, two, that she had a plan. A stupid plan, maybe, but a plan. She turned back. Rei had an arrow drawn, aimed at the beast’s heart, Mako had her hammer ready to launch. “You will hold your fire until I say, or until I am dead.” She looked to Michiru. “You will make sure they do.”

“I will do more than that.”

You’ll kill me yourself if Haruka dies again. But it didn’t matter. Maybe it would even be enough to keep Michiru alive if she failed.

Minako walked forward. She was not a magical girl. She’d spent her soul and become a witch. By rights, she should not exist.

Kyubey had said they’d all made their wishes.

But maybe, just maybe, there had been a but on the end of it. If no one asked, he’d never say.

She gripped the hilt of one of the swords. “I wish to find Haruka, whole and alive.” She pulled it out of the dripping belly. Dark liquid came with it, splashing and burning her skin. “I wish to find Haruka, whole and alive.” Another sword, more burns.

“I wish.”

Her arms were covered in blisters and angry red welts.

“I wish.”

Tears stung at her eyes, every splash and splatter stung at her cheeks, her neck.

“I wish.”

Her strength began to fail, a sword came out and swung into her leg.

“I wish.”

The world narrowed to this pain.

“I wish!”

And Kyubey heard.

She felt her soul separate and condense into a gem. She transformed, not into her old costume but into something like her school uniform, how Haruka had known and liked her best. The dog’s legs gave out, Minako dug into the dark liquid as it crashed down on her.

Her hands found Haruka, warm and safe and alive. The witch world faded. Minako cried into her shoulder.

“I’m so, so sorry.”

Haruka held her tightly. “Do you know what my wish was?”

Mina could only shake her head.

“I wished we’d both get through this alive. And you made it come true.” Her grip tightened. “I’m so sorry I doubted you.”

They sobbed into each other for a long while, from relief, from grief, from guilt. Finally, Minako’s eyes met Michiru’s. There was, likely, more grief yet to be had. She prayed it could wait. An hour, a day, just some separation between tragedies.

“Well,” Mako said gently. “I think we all could use some cake.”

They walked off all together. Haruka held Mina’s right hand, and, to Mina’s great surprise, Rei took her left. Minako felt a warmth much quieter than their usual fire. On the other side, Michiru let Haruka link her arm through hers, careful to keep her jacket covering her skin. Mako flanked Rei. She lacked her usual smile but was somehow still reassuring; she would keep them from despair.

Whatever would happen later, in that moment Mina felt sure that they could keep making it through.

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rosepetalrevolution replied to your post: docholligay replied to your post: Well…

I personally got annoyed by the amount of stage time the villains got. The full Witches 5 + Kaolinite + Tomoe + Death Phantom + Mistress 9 is a lot even when nobody’s getting resurrected or excessively long songs. I get that fans love them (I’m all about Eudial) but it took away the very little time we had for the actual Senshi and didn’t even really get us into their characters. That was disappointing, along with final battle being mostly just Satomi standing there I think UNV could’ve gotten away with more in medias res storytelling if it had really committed to it.l – that’s what LR had to do and it didn’t really detract from things that much. Just throw us in and let us watch it play out in vivid detail.

These are all good points. IIRC (from like 6 hours ago whoops) towards the beginning there are two villain songs back to back, which r e a l l y threw me off. And for as much stage time as they got, I don’t feel like they did anything new or interesting with them? (LR and PE had lots of villain time too, but LR was like, boy band!! BERYL IN ARMOR! and PE was like PLOT TWIST: SAPPHIR. (and also Rubeus’s arms)) I actually would have been down with them cutting the Witches 5 ala the Ayakashi sisters. (I like the Witches 5 but I like almost everyone else in this musical more)

And in media res would have been interesting, especially since we didn’t get much of an introduction for Haruka and Michiru anyway (and NOTHING FOR SETSUNA I’M REALLY BITTER ABOUT IT). 

Now I’m frustrated thinking of all the ways it could have been better.

rosepetalrevolution

 

Angstober Day 3- “It hurts”

Reading all of these in succession was the best/worst choice because you are SLAYING this Angstober!

Ahhh thank you! I’m glad people are enjoying (/being made to suffer by?) the things I’m writing. I tend to think of myself as more of a fluff writer by nature and am honestly surprised by my output this month. And even more surprised at people’s reactions. 🙂

Lengthy replies to This is How a Kingdom Falls P.1 under the cut! 

docholligay replied to your post “This is How a Kingdom Falls”

OH MY LORD GOD WHAT AN OPENER

rosepetalrevolution replied

Wow, you are pulling absolutely zero punches here from the very beginning, and I love it.

I initially toyed with opening at the battle itself and showing Minako make her choice, but decided against it and I’m really glad you like it! 

rosepetalrevolution said: Just getting straight to the feels, and this conversation between Rei and Minako is spot on. The observation about Rei’s temper and the question about Usagi/Serenity are especially on point.

Ahh thank you. That fight was one of my favorite parts to write.

docholligay said: I never play with Chibs and co so I love this idea of Ceres taking over for Venus but making mistakes, it’s so interesting.
rosepetalrevolution said: I also never think much about the Quartet + Usagi’s senshi, but that is such a nice move to make. The variables give us something fresher than a team that’s fought together for so long, there’s no surprising each other or the reader.
rosepetalrevolution said: Oooh, the Quartet are fleeing? This is intriguing, I’m wondering if this’ll be the last we see of them.

The Quartet are some of my stealth favs, so it’s really tempting to have them play a bigger part than I originally planned. I periodically get really invested in how they work as senshi in Crystal Tokyo, and the differences between them and the senshi we know. I see them having the problem of thinking they can’t live up to their predecessors (a theme of Chib’s generation) and that being precisely why they won’t (or at least, why they didn’t save Chibs here).

rosepetalrevolution said: AND AMI. I wouldn’t have called that, but it makes a lot of sense here. Really excited to see where that goes.

I’m so so glad it seems to make sense, I had such trouble trying to keep Ami at least sort of in character (and I’ve had the same problem with Mako in part two, which I don’t understand since Mako is my ultimate fav). But I think Ami more than anyone would see it as a truly impossible choice, since Chibiusa is a child she loves, and I think she’d feel a moral obligation to save a child, but Usagi is so important to her, Usagi was her first real friend and the reason she has everything, and how do you let someone who means that much to you die?

docholligay said: ahhaahah Haruka in deep self loathing and emotional pain is my DRUG also bitter hotaru yes yes yes give me all of it

>:) 

docholligay said: USAGI NO

said everyone, but especially Setsuna

rosepetalrevolution said: UGH SETSUNA WATCHING THE QUEEN MOURNING, THE SAME EVEN WHEN IT’S A DIFFERENT SERENITY. She’s always too much for me, it’s so great.

I was nervous about writing her since I haven’t before and I wondered how to keep such a wise, complicated person in character, but really it’s just like, what hurts me the most? oh okay. 
on a related note, “Not Lonliness” popped into my head just as I wrote the line about Chibiusa’s still tiny hands and I about started crying.

rosepetalrevolution said: “It had never been Metalia’s doing” YES I LOVE THIS

THIS FIC IS JUST A SECRET WAY OF ME WORKING IN MY SILMIL HEADCANONS WITHOUT WRITING ABOUT SILMIL. Metalia’s why the princess died, arguably, but the queen wrecked the real destruction.

rosepetalrevolution said: “She bit down on her tongue to keep from crying. She didn’t deserve to grieve.” THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE KINDS OF MINAKO, GIVING HARUKA A RUN FOR HER MONEY IN THE BEST DRAMATIC PERFORMANCE CATEGORY.

Alternate Civil War fic idea: Haruka and Mina face off on who can dramatic monologue about their inner darkness better. It’s truly the battle of the ages.

docholligay said: Oh Haruka silently reassuring Mina, oh god, my heart, my soul

This is where I thank you for bringing the brotp into our lives.

rosepetalrevolution said: Oh Mina. That is such a bad idea
 But totally something she’d do if she wasn’t thinking straight. She knows what’ll buy her the most amount of time, give her some kind of advantage, even if the plan’s a fool’s errand to begin with

What got to me when writing that bit was that no one actually wants to fight her, but her feelings about what she did make her see it that way

docholligay said: Man, I feel so bad for Minako, everything she does is well and truly fucked I agree with her, she’s doomed either way

Yeah, and I think she’d be fucked over even if she had chosen Chibiusa, tbh, just in a different way. The inners would outwardly be glad she saved Chibs, but there’d be that insidious blame that she let Usagi die that would eventually erupt, and Mina would have the hardest time living with herself.

rosepetalrevolution said: Aww yess, Setsuna worried about volatile, over-powerful NQS. This is what I’m here for this month.

I love how many of us have this take on NQS. There are PROBLEMS with your ruler having the strongest power in the universe.

rosepetalrevolution said: God, they’re all doomed no matter what they do, and Setsuna knows it. There’s no right answer for them, it’s all only a matter of time. It’s so beautiful and tragic.

Pluto really just wants one lifetime that doesn’t end this way. She thought it would be this one. 

docholligay said: God, i love that whole passage between Hotaru and Michiru
rosepetalrevolution said: HOTARU PLAYING MICHIRU’S OWN CARD, YES YES YES LIKE MOTHER LIKE DAUGHTER

This was one of my other favorite parts to write, I’m glad you enjoyed it. 

rosepetalrevolution said: oh shit parent Mako bringing out the gigantic emotional guns, this is exactly the kind of thing that makes me interested in her place in these sorts of fic

that whole bit was born out of a what was originally throw away background info for Haruka and Michiru, but then if they had kids, Mako sure as hell had kids, and there’s no way Mako doesn’t come away from that with a ton of fucked up emotional baggage, since none of her family relationships have ended the “right way.” Her parents died young, she watches her children and grandchildren and so on grow old and sick. She needed Chibs, she really really did.

docholligay said: Haruka knowing that Hotaru will call her a bad parent, oh, what a beautiful touch

There are times when Hotaru would be gracious and call Haruka and Michiru alright parents (sometimes even good parents, she loves them in spite of herself) because there is part of her that understands why they did what they did, but Haruka would always know it’s not the full answer, and she knows in that moment it’s not the answer at all. 😩

rosepetalrevolution said: NOT SETSUNA D: but that’s such a smart move, and a great place to break.

I’d say at least she’s reunited with Small Lady now, but who knows how long either of them is staying dead. (I do. I know.)

farronheit said: holy hell all those civil war fanfics are so AWESOME and jesus christ I LOVE THE CONFLICT HERE where Minako had to choose either Chibs or her Queen and now with Minako and Setsuna being like that


I am loving everyone’s fics too, and I’m so glad you enjoy mine! Somehow the conflict is the first thing I thought of when I saw the prompt. 

rosepetalrevolution said: This is so fast-paced and spot on, and it changes up its punches in really smart & effective ways. A great balance of tight characterization & action!!! I love it and can’t wait to see where you go with the rest of it!

Ahh thank you!

docholligay said: APPROVE. CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEXT BIT

THANK YOU. THE NEXT BIT SHOULD BE UP LATER TODAY OR EARLY TOMORROW.

Ahiru, Fakir, Rue, Mytho – 17?

First off, the cuteness of imagining their karaoke night is making me smile a ridiculous amount. (And obviously, I’m going with english language music, just for familiarity sake.)

Okay, so I think Rue would be a little nervous about picking a song and singing, so I think Ahiru would offer to sing with her. She’d pick something cute, I’m thinking like Colbie Caillat’s “Bubbly” or Sara Bareilles’s “I Choose You,” something fun but also sincere that’ll make their boys blush (even though Ahiru and Rue are singing to each other (platonically) as much as they’re singing to Fakir and Mytho).

I initially thought of Mytho singing “Pieces of Me” as a joke, but now the idea won’t leave. I can easily see Mytho really liking pop, not it necessarily being his favorite, but definitely something he’d like and the sort of thing he’d pull out to have fun with everyone.

Fakir completely unironically sings “Welcome to the Black Parade.”

And then Ahiru really wants to do another “duet,” so she gets Mytho to sing “You Don’t Know You’re Beautiful” to Rue with her.

(Later, Fakir feels bad he’s the only one who didn’t sing a love song, so on the ride/walk/whatever home, he puts on “Wonderful Tonight” and flusteredly sings along and changes the lyrics to fit Ahiru.)