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I missed a call from my sister today. They’ve been planning on buying my niece fish, and today they finally did it. Not exactly news worth calling over.
What is news worth calling over is that she named them Sailor Moon and Sailor Jupiter. I have done well with this child.
So far the residual myu feels have kept me from being nervous about starting my internship today.
But now that I’m almost ready to head out I feel all the nervous. And also creepy, because “Pure Goddess” is stuck in my head.
People who are excited about my thesis topic: all my fellow students and random friends who I’ve told about it
People who are not excited about my thesis topic: The professors that could advise my project
“Abracadabra” has stuck so firmly in my head since the moment I woke up it’s ridiculous.
Do you ever realize that the most gorgeous, wonderful person you know doesn’t think they are the gorgeous and wonderful and you just want to tell them but you don’t know how to make it sincere and not weird?
My first creative writing assignment is just to write a page about a character I plan to write about this semester.
I’m already getting way too attached and I’ve barely written a paragraph.
I might not be able to contain her to a single short story like I planned.
So I finally decided to come out to my best friend from highschool, because I’m pretty sure she already knows but I’ve always had this fear of telling her. We were chatting today and and always crushes came up so I decided to just get it out of the way instead of continuing to dance around it. But then she went offline and now facebook seems to be down so my lead in message is just sitting there indefinitely.
I shouldn’t stress about it but it’s the beginning of the school year so stress is like, my default state.
*sudden resurgence of hp feels*
oh no
me: *gets a “celebrate your last first day” email*
me: *curls up under covers* no why would you do that I’m not ready
shit shit shit I have a phone interview for an internship in an hour I hate phone interviews so much
I mean I get nervous for in-person interviews too but it’s easier because I get to physically present myself and I get to use more than my voice to make an impression and also I can see their reactions and gage how I’m doing
phone interviews are terrible I hate talking on the phone with anyone but people I’m really close to anyway
also I just got honors stuff sorted out so I’m definitely writing a thesis this year and that might be a mistake I don’t honestly think I can write a thesis AND intern AND take a full class load, but obviously I need the classes and interning (esp. since if I get this one it’s supposed to be a paid internship) is important for getting a job when I graduate in spring, and I was going to drop honors but when I talked to my dad about it he was all “but then you’ll look like a quitter you don’t want to be a quitter do you” so apparently I shouldn’t drop it even though writing a thesis has zero application for anything I want to do after graduation (as I’m not planning on traditional grad school).
I am currently just a ball of nerves and I want to curl up and do nothing.
SittingOverHereDreaming 