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This is weird and kind of dumb, but I’m having some sort of emotion about last night and how it feels like my gayness is now less theoretical because I did a Gay Thing. I mean, dancing isn’t really  a Thing, even if it was fairly sexual, but at the same time IT’S KIND OF A HUGE THING. Like, up to last night I have done nothing with my gayness, I’ve liked girls and have gotten as far as asking some out, but that’s it. I haven’t actually acted on anything. So dancing with a girl, in a lesbian bar, and having gotten fairly close to kissing (her face was very close to mine at one point, and if she’d gone for it I wouldn’t have stopped her), suddenly everything feels very real. Like I am going to have a physical relationship with a woman someday! For real! I want to! It’s possible! It is a thing I will do! 

And it’s weird and exciting and maybe a little scary too, but it’s also… jarringly comfortable. 

A GIRL DANCED WITH ME

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MOstly people assumed my roommate and I were an item, but then right before we’d planned to leave a girl just. started dancing with me?? She asked for my name and shit and was. Very dancing with me. She took my hand once. !!!!!! AND I AM NOT A GREAT DANCER I AM. SO VERY WHITE AND A DORK. SO IF SHE WANTED TO DANCE WITH ME SHE MUST HAVE THOUGHT I WAS CUTE WHICH IS AMAZE.

I had a GREAT time even besides that though, I’m normally not one for like, dancey bars but a dancey lesbian bar is GREAT. WOMEN ARE GREAT.

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IMPORTANT RELATED POST. It’s a very important anniversary I’m sure you all care DEEPLY about. (extreme dorkiness, sappiness, and more selfies behind the cut)

ONE YEAR AGO TODAY MY FRIEND BOUGHT ME MY FIRST MENSWEAR

look at what a baby I was

I WAS SO NERVOUS THAT IT DIDN’T LOOK GOOD. YOU CAN SEE I WAS KIND OF TRYING TO FEMME IT UP, EVEN THOUGH THAT IS THE OPPOSITE OF WHY I WANTED THAT SHIRT. 

compare to today, when I’m like “this is hideous and I love it”

I’M A WEE BIT FEELSY BECAUSE WHILE I’M STILL SELF CONSCIOUS ABOUT SOME ASPECTS OF MY PRESENTATION LOOK AT HOW FAR I’VE COME AND HOW MUCH MORE CONFIDENT I AM

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TOMORROW IS MY SIXTH DAY IN A ROW WORKING, AND A CLOPEN AT THAT. I was down to two days a week for so long THIS IS ROUGH. BUt $$$$$ and also I might get to see the girl the day after, so INCENTIVE.

…and then I work again Wednesday SO I’M SORRY THERE WILL PROBABLY BE VERY LITTLE ACTIVITY FROM ME UNTIL THURSDAY. 

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captainsnumple replied to your photo “WOULD THAT SHE WERE but she’s like… The least Michiru person I know….”

I’M PRETTY SURE YOU KNOW YOURSELF WHAT’S BAD AND GOOD FOR YOU WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOUR COWORKER

THANK YOU SNUMPS. I always feel like I’m more of a sensitive baby than I have a right to be over stuff like this, because I never had a REAL problem, but it does send me reeling sometimes because I counted calories for like… seven years and in high school my entire self worth was tied to my weight and my grades SO I APPRECIATE PEOPLE NOT COMMENTING ON WHAT I EAT. IT’S ONE OF MY BIGGEST PET PEEVES.

But I just… stopped talking to her so she got the hint and left me alone at least. AND I DRANK MY WONDERFULLY BAD FOR ME DRINK AND IT WAS GOOD.