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Management is all up in arms because a temp “unexpectedly” quit on a dime
But this was after they dodged questions about fully hiring her, hired every temp besides her and told them all to keep it secret, and then blew the whole thing by handing out new employee badges right in front of her
Of course she was gonna quit you dumb fucks and I’m damn glad she arranged it to cause as much trouble as possible
A little while back, my wife’s brother gave us their old family wii, so I’m finally playing Skyward Sword seven years late
And I’m having a blast while trying to learn the motion controls, but also I accidentally killed a butterfly and I can’t tell if I’m delighted or horrified that it’s a thing you can do
I’ve generally thought the real estate team we’re working with has done a good job, but I swear if they mess up my wife’s name one more time I might lose it
Naturally, on my extra day off my body decides to just crash
I’ve been mostly quiet on this, but the wife and I just got an accepted offer on a house
If I can wish for one thing, let it be that I never say I wish I had the confidence to try something
My wife and I have talked about a weekend get away for months now, and this week they decided we’re just going to do it and booked a hotel, and I am super excited and emotional and this workday is going way too slow
Last post about it for now, I promise.
I don’t really know what to do now. The hospital visit probably isn’t going to change anything, except for that my wife missed another day of work and is probably going to quit. And maybe they should quit! Going to work has been making them miserable. (And that is really hard to swallow for me, but it’s clearly harming them more than the usual, so, ????) I want to be supportive, but we’ve tried having them not work. It has also been bad! I’m starting to think there are no good options, and I don’t know what to do with that. Working at least meant they had fewer opportunities to harm themselves. There have been days when they don’t have a job where I make them come to my work and sit in the car all day because I’m too afraid to let them be alone. But both jobs they’ve tried post-college have spiraled into ER visits. Voluntary, but still. But before they had this job, they made an attempt on taking pills, they just changed their mind in time so no damage was done. It seems like nothing works, and there’s stuff beyond circumstance but. They take their meds they do therapy. I convinced them to try a hotline the other day. I don’t know what else to do.
And I really can’t do anything, and that’s hard on me. I mean, I can do a lot, but it’s all momentary happiness. Holding them or bringing them flowers or making them a stupid farce of a wedding cake makes them smile but then it’s gone, they can’t hold onto it. The big stuff is so out of my hands, except for all the ways I can mess it up.
I know there’s no answer. It’s just hard.
Re: this morning, thank you everyone for your kindness
Also my wife still hasn’t been seen by a doctor because American healthcare is shiiiiiiiiiiiiit
I took my wife to the ER this morning, they haven’t taken any actions but they’re not doing well and nothing’s working, I’m sort of hoping they go inpatient this time. Any good thoughts you want to send are appreciated.
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