Me: wow I’d sure like to feel less stressed and anxious
My brain: One order of complete and utter apathy coming right up
Me: NOT WHAT I MEANT
Tag: personal
YO THE HOUSE STUFF ALL GOT RESOLVED WE OWN THIS NOW
and only one person in the whole process asked if we were sisters
Blehhhh I’ve been inactive and might be for a little bit, between work and stuff going weird with the house (not saying wrong yet, but not right) I’m super stressed and have little creative energy
Also video games. I admit I’m using a lot of time to play video games
Oversleeping not meaning you miss work : good
Oversleeping meaning you do miss the gym, and will be restless and moody all day: less good
Mall haul!! I got two Reis from blind boxes, which amuses me a lot! I was very happy one store had the Yukata Inners, they’re so pretty. And the shirt was irresistible— there was only one left, and my wife insisted I go for it.
Today my wife and I are driving out to Syracuse so I can take them to the GIANT MALL I saw Le Mouvement Finale in, which I’ve been wanting to do since I went.
There are FOUR FLOORS and there are MAPS that you can take to navigate and I am EXCITED
@rhiorhino ITS SO WEIRD ITS JUST HAIR PEOPLE CAN CHILL I’ve gotten sooooo much shit over the years and I don’t understand where it comes from at all
Also my DREAM is pale pink, but a) I’m worried about being perceived as less butch for it and b) I know to get a pale color I’d have to have it done professionally, because my hair is SUPER BRIGHT when bleached
Low-key thinking about dying my hair, in part because 25 years on this earth and I’m still EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE by the value placed on my hair by strangers (and not-strangers), when I didn’t even do anything to have red hair.
But I don’t know what color to tryyyyyy
me, trying to work on my original fic project: okay I know I had this information written down somewhere… oh that looks like a planning doc, maybe it’s there
document: *has two notes on half-formed ideas, and then extensive info on pokemon teams for my OCs*
me: why do I do this to myself. why do I do this to myself twice in the same folder
Sorry I’ve been so inactive, job whining below the cut
Lately I’ve felt like I’m just… treading water with job stuff. For a while I really believed I was moving up, but it was all false assumptions (that I would get a raise, that the company would have good policies, that my coworkers were able to live comfortably because of their jobs and not in spite of them).
I’m in a spot of a lot of privilege, for a handful of reasons, but ultimately none of them make up for income, and that’s besides how unhappy my job makes me. And I don’t know what to do, because nothing seems any better. More school would just mean debt, and my existing job prospects are just what I do now, or retail (I would love retail, honesty, if it were more humane. But as I discussed with my wife, my current job makes me very unhappy, but allows me to take care of myself, while retail made me happy but prevented care (sleep, planning more than a few days ahead, etc) so it made me more depressed.)
And it’s not a unique problem to me, but like. My wife and I are thinking about a kid, and it’s honestly almost impossible with where we’re at. And that’s so devastating? I just feel so trapped. I’m trying to pursue more things, in finally trying to learn to code, I’m applying to jobs still and I’m looking at stupid internet side gigs, and it all just makes me feel worse. And I know it’s hard on my wife, because they can’t work right now, and they feel guilty, and ugh.
I just want jobs to be fair, and nothing really is. And that’s life, but, you know. I’m a whiny millennial.
SittingOverHereDreaming 