oh and – SittingOverHereDreaming

sometimes it feels like street harassers can sense when I’m having days when I feel happy and androgynous/agender/whatever, and they’re like, that person who has a vagina and boobs feels like they can be something other than a woman, better remind them that we’ll never see them as anything else and that gives us power! I almost never have street harassment when I’m feeling 100% girl.

granted I don’t know if today technically counts as street harassment, a guy in a cheese suit (like, a cheese costume. no idea if he was working for one of the store or if he was just like. I feel like dressing as cheese today) grabbed me and kissed my head after declaring that he liked my hair (“her hair”), so I have no idea what to call that. except unpleasant.

shit shit shit I have a phone interview for an internship in an hour I hate phone interviews so much

I mean I get nervous for in-person interviews too but it’s easier because I get to physically present myself and I get to use more than my voice to make an impression and also I can see their reactions and gage how I’m doing

phone interviews are terrible I hate talking on the phone with anyone but people I’m really close to anyway

also I just got honors stuff sorted out so I’m definitely writing a thesis this year and that might be a mistake I don’t honestly think I can write a thesis AND intern AND take a full class load, but obviously I need the classes and interning (esp. since if I get this one it’s supposed to be a paid internship) is important for getting a job when I graduate in spring, and I was going to drop honors but when I talked to my dad about it he was all “but then you’ll look like a quitter you don’t want to be a quitter do you” so apparently I shouldn’t drop it even though writing a thesis has zero application for anything I want to do after graduation (as I’m not planning on traditional grad school).

I am currently just a ball of nerves and I want to curl up and do nothing.