I took my wife to the ER this morning, they haven’t taken any actions but they’re not doing well and nothing’s working, I’m sort of hoping they go inpatient this time. Any good thoughts you want to send are appreciated.
Tag: mental health cw
I wasn’t going to make any sort of post today, because there are so many voices already, but I realize there’s one thing I do want to say:
To all my followers, and anyone else who may see this, I know there is so much grief today, I know so much of the discussion happening only adds to the pain of the actual attack, and I know these things all can take a toll on mental health. So if you’re struggling with certain impulses, like I am, take this as a sign to not give in. I love you and we can get through this ❤
As much as I always label things “my brain” and “brian junk,” I always feel it in my chest, and I visualize it as a sort of monster that lives in there– it looks like a little black fox, all curled up inside my ribs and around my heart. Except everything from its fur to its bones is liquid, a consistency somewhere between blood and tar. When it moves, it flows. In sleep, it settles into complete stillness, but when it wakes, it sloshes all round, trying to break out of its cage. My body knows there’s not supposed to be that much liquid crashing around my lungs. That’s why it feels like I’m drowning.
So, I need some advice and I don’t know who to reach out to about it, I don’t know that any of you would know but I’m putting it out here just in case. Under a cut for serious stuffs.
So, I’m planning on starting therapy, probably after the first of the year. I finally got my dad to send me the insurance info I need since I’m still on his plan. (Didn’t come out to him yet, but ah well)
The thing is, I have no idea how to pick a therapist. I don’t plan on specifically doing gender therapy, as it’s more that my problems with guilt and feelings and the Thing that never got properly dealt with are just brought into the light more than ever as I come to terms with being Not A Woman. I dunno that a gender therapist would be the person to talk to about the Thing or my relationship with my parents or any of that stuff. BUT I also know that if I got a therapist who wasn’t well versed in LGBT stuff it’ll do hella more damage than not going at all (and not going, at this juncture, is causing damage). So like, I dunno, is there a Rate My Psychologist like there is for professors? Could I got to a gender therapist and still deal with other issues with them?
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