My fiancee’s dad has suggested we buy an apartment (like a specific one that opened up in his sister’s building) and I don’t know how to process any of it. I only just learned that you can buy apartments and basics about mortgages, and also the numbers are bigger amounts than I can comprehend. It’s all very absurd to me and we have a call with him a little later today about it because he said he’d help (what he meant we don’t know) and I’m trying to fight my instinct to run away from the whole thing because what the fuck.

I don’t understand real estate or money and I don’t understand what’s possible because our financial backgrounds are different, and like, I don’t even know what I’ll say today because it’s so unreal to me.

I have my five minute thesis presentation in a few hours. I’m really glad it’s so short because during rehearsals I started getting nervous that me talking about gender could make people wonder about MY gender, and nope English Profs aren’t a crowd I’m interested in being out to.