I’ve had an image stuck in my head for a few days, and my drawing skills aren’t enough to capture it BUT I TRIED ANYWAY. Uh, warning for blood/death under the cut?

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I’ve had an image stuck in my head for a few days, and my drawing skills aren’t enough to capture it BUT I TRIED ANYWAY. Uh, warning for blood/death under the cut?

ALRIGHT. Here it is, 3500 words of pure sap. Originally I started this for Doc’s giveaway, but it quickly became something I wrote so entirely for myself that now it’s not.
Anyway, yes, Harumichi wedding, Haruka/Mina/Mako brot3, some Reinako leanings. Many butch tears. AO3 Link
A Wedding, For Real
Haruka knew herself well enough that she’d decided on points
in the wedding when it was appropriate to cry—a little when Michiru came down
the aisle, a bit more (a lot) during the
vows, but not so much that she could not speak. At the reception, when Mina
gave a speech that would undoubtedly be a little snide at times but would end
up being just heartfelt enough. During her first dance with her wife, but only
a few tears towards the end.
This was none of those times.
This was barely two hours before the ceremony was due to
start, in the hotel room she’d slept in to keep with the tradition of not
seeing the bride. She was half in her suit, sitting on the edge of the bed. She
should have been fully in her suit, hair done, shoes tied, ready to sprint out
the door the moment Mina arrived with the car. But instead Mina found her as
she was, unable to stop crying long enough to tie her tie. Fear raked its claws
through her empty stomach and made her whole body shake.
“Buddy, what’s wrong?” Mina sat down on the bed next to her
and rubbed her back. “I thought you’d have been ready for hours and bouncing
off the walls.”
Haruka gave a nasally laugh. “I thought so too. It just…”
She grabbed another tissue and blew her nose. “How impossible this all is hit
me. It can’t really be happening.”
She wiped at her face with the tissue but Mina grabbed her
hands. “Stop, you’re going to irritate your skin with that.” She ducked into
the bathroom and returned with a towel. “Now, gently. You don’t want red marks
today. Tell me what you mean.”
Haruka pressed the towel onto her face, gave a heaving sob,
and left it there. “Part of me always thought this would never happen for me.”
“What, marriage? Haruka, you’ve had secret wedding mood
boards saved on your computer for as long as I’ve known you. Not that I’ve
looked through your files or anything.”
“That’s different,” said Haruka, ignoring the rest for now.
“That’s like, when you’re little and you imagine yourself as a superhero. It
doesn’t matter how bad you want it, it can’t ever come true.”
“Buddy, I don’t know how to tell you this, but we are, in
fact, superheroes.”
“That’s not the point. I’m trying to say it didn’t matter
how much I wanted this, it was never going to happen. And now, it seems like it
is, and I…” She hiccupped, gasped for breath. “And I, I feel scared something’s
going to come take it away. That it’s all going to disappear somehow.”
“Oh Haruka.” Mina hugged her tight. “Listen carefully,
because I’m only going to be this sappy once. Someone was always going to love
you. You’re a terrible sappy dork, but you’re a lovable sappy. So even if our
shitty destiny hadn’t thrown Michiru in you path, you’d have found happiness with
a love of your life and wound up here anyway. But,” Mina pulled away and looked
Haruka hard in the eyes. “Destiny did throw Michiru in your path. And whatever
else I say about the squidly princess, she loves you more than anything in the
world, and believe me when I say nothing is capable of stopping her.”
Haruka sniffled. “You think so?”
Minako rolled her eyes. “What, do you want receipts?” She
sighed. “Just, trust me. I’m the goddess of love, after all, I know this stuff.
And,” she took Haruka’s shoulders firmly in her hands, “I absolutely would not
let this wedding happen if I wasn’t absolutely sure she loves you with
everything she has. Got it?”
“But—“
“No buts.” Mina brushed away the last of the tears with a
gentle swipe of her thumb. “You’re getting married.
We have to get you ready.”
Mina tied her tie—Harukas hands still shook– and helped
with her hair and even coaxed her into a little makeup. “Just to hide the
redness. You’ll need it even more later, I’m sure. And it’s waterproof.” Haruka couldn’t even
say she was sure she would cry again before they got there, so she saw some
wisdom in wearing it.
They arrived at the ceremony hall not nearly as early as
Haruka had planned, but still squarely on time. The fear did not subside when
she saw the aisle set up, or the people beginning to trickle in. It, in fact,
got a whole lot worse.
“What the hell, Mina, did you sneak her out for a last
minute bachelor party last night?” Mako stopped fussing with the flowers to put
her hands on her hips and frown at Mina.
“Do I look that bad?”
Mako’s eyes widened. “No, no. You don’t look bad at all.
Just. You’re a bit pale. And you’re not happy.”
Haruka felt her lip start to wobble.
“Oh no. No no no, you’re fine.” Mako scrambled around for
comfort. “You look good, very handsome, I promise. You just… You’re just…
missing your boutonniere! That’s all!” She pulled the plastic box from her
handbag and ripped the flower out of it. She stuck it to Haruka’s lapel and
pinned it to her chest.
Or, more accurately, through her chest.
“Mako. You got skin there.”
“Oh fuck.” One of
Michiru’s aunts turned in her seats to give them a scandalized scowl. Mako
grabbed Haruka’s arm. “There’s a bathroom over here, come on.”
Mina took hold of Haruka’s other hand. “Don’t pull it out
yet, we don’t have time to wash blood out of you shirt.”
“Maybe it’s a sign.”
“IT’S NOT A SIGN.”
Mako cocked her head.
“She’s afraid the wedding’s not going to happen,” Mina stage
whispered.
“Oh, it’s going to happen. I did not arrange several
thousand flowers and bake that ridiculous cake for you to call it off now.”
Mako’s grip tightened on her arm. “You are going to marry Michiru if I have to
carry you down the aisle myself. Also,” she continued, voice lightening, “You
love each other. You’re living the dream. Why on earth would you not get
married?”
“It’s some cosmic joke,” Haruka said as Mina kicked open the
bathroom door and began yanking out a very liberal amount of paper towels. “I
think I’m living the dream, but I’m
actually living a dream. And I’m
going to wake up and see all the reasons this can’t be real for me, or she’s
gonna wake up, and—“
Mako slammed her hand down on Haruka’s shoulder. “Stop. How
do you think Michiru would feel if she knew you doubted her love?”
“…Mad?”
“She’d be sad! Has she not been good enough to you? Has she
given you a reason to question her?”
“No, of course not.”
“So there you go.”
“Okay,” Mina said, with what must have been twenty crumpled
paper towels in hand. “I need you to hold her suit open.”
“Right.” Mako loosened her tie and began undoing her
buttons.
“Wait, what? Guys, I can do this myself.”
“Haruka, today is not a day to leave you to your own
devices.” Mina leaned in close. “Now I’m going to count down from five, and on
one, I’m going to pull out the pin, and you’re going to pull that side of her
shirt away immediately after. Got it? The timing is very important.”
“Roger that.”
“Five… four… three… two… one…”
They moved in perfect sync, as though all their years as
soldiers led to this moment. There was not a single second that Haruka’s
clothes were exposed to the open pin wound. Mina pressed the paper towels
firmly on her chest.
“It’s, what, sixty seconds of pressure that stops the
bleeding?”
“We could do two minutes, to be safe. And then I think I
have some band aids in my purse.”
“Good. You get a gold star for preparedness.”
“I’ve got a Tide pen too so…” She examined Haruka’s shirt
carefully. “If any did get on here, it might be fixable.”
“What are you
three doing?”
Rei stood in the doorway, arms crossed over her sleek blue
bridesmaid dress. Haruka became keenly aware that she was half naked in a
public restroom being fondled by a wad of paper towels.
“We’ve got it under control, Rei don’t worry,” Mina said
over her shoulder. “And may I say you look—“
“You may not.” Her heels clicked on the tile as she
approached. “Michiru had a feeling I should come early, and boy was she right.”
“Is she calling it off? Did she send you to call it off?”
Rei stared at Haruka for a long moment, and then she rounded
on Mina. “Did you get her drunk? Did you bring her drunk to her wedding? Mina I
swear—“
“Why does everyone keep blaming me? She’s a sober butch with
a lot of feelings, lay off! This is a huge deal and she’s scared.”
Rei huffed. “I can’t deal with either of you. Mako, explain
to me what is going on here.”
“Well, Haruka is scared the wedding won’t happen, and I
tried to cheer her up by pinning on her boutonniere. But I, uh, pinned a bit
too much, so now we’re here to make sure she doesn’t get blood stains on her
clothes.”
Rei’s face went completely blank for several seconds. Then
she reached over and lifted Mina’s hand, revealing absolutely no blood on any
of the twenty paper towels or on Haruka’s chest.
“Oh,” Mako and Mina chorused.
Rei breathed heavily through her nose. “I’m going to turn
around now, and you’re going to get her dressed. Then I’ll pin on her
boutonniere.”
“Good plan, my beautiful princess of passion.”
“Shut it. Maybe if you used your brain for something more
than those atrocious pet names, we wouldn’t be here right now.”
Mina pouted as she re-tied Haruka’s tie. “I guess that’s
fair. And boobs are covered, so you can look.”
“Listen, Rei,” Haruka said as she approached her lapel with
careful hands. “Don’t tell Michiru I’m asking, but, you know her really well.
Is she having any doubts? Does she really want to get married?”
Rei successfully pinned it and looked up. “Do you want
complete honesty?”
“Yes?”
“Michiru doesn’t really care about getting married.”
Mako gasped. A large lump formed in Haruka’s throat.
“She never thought about it much, it wasn’t something she
dreamed about as a child or anything. And it is first and foremost a financial
and social transaction, it’s not actually romantic—“
“Rei.”
“Fine, that last part is me, not her. But the rest is true. A
wedding isn’t something she cares much about. But she cares about you. And she,
for reasons unknown to me, wants to be with you forever. So she’s going to
marry you, because it’s important to you, and because, maybe, you make it feel
a little important to her. You make it seem like it is a bit romantic and sweet
and not just a contract originally intended to give men ownership of women.”
Haruka wiped away a tear. Mina sidled up to Rei. “Do I hear
some genuine feelings pouring from your mouth?”
“I was talking about Michiru’s feelings, not mine.”
Mina grinned. “You think marriage can be sweet sometimes.
You’re not as impenetrable as you want me to think.”
“Oh, shut up.” Rei looked at her phone for the time. “It’s
almost time for Michiru to get here, you should get in position.” She started
out the door, but then stopped. “You guys… you remembered the rings, right?”
A whole new wave of fear crashed over Haruka. She’d been too
preoccupied to check with Mina. They couldn’t get married without rings, this
what it, she’d worried about the wrong thing—
“Right here.” Mina reached into her bra and pulled out the
little ring box.
“That’s where you’re keeping them?” Rei scowled.
“Hey, if I can feel them against my skin, I know for sure
exactly where they are. And no one’s going to be reaching in there today,
unless you’ve been so moved by the atmosphere of love…”
“I’m leaving now. Goodbye.”
Haruka sniffled and pulled Mina into a hug. “Thank you for
remembering them.”
Mina patted her back. “Don’t you worry, buddy, I’ve got in
handled. You’re marriage license is here too. In my bag, not my boobs. Didn’t
want it to get wrinkled.”
Haruka laughed. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
Haruka turned to Mako. “You too. You did all the real work
for this.”
Mako blushed and shoved Haruka’s shoulder. “Not all of it.
The planning was all you.”
“I guess so.” Haruka’s eyes watered again, but she smiled.
“Guys… I’m getting married today.”
“There’s the Haruka we’ve been waiting for!” They both
tackled her with a group hug. “But, specifically, you’re getting married in a few minutes. We should get out
there.”
They each took one of her hands and led her to the front of
the hall. Haruka’s breath caught as she saw all their guests in their seats,
all the flowers lining the aisle. The officiator smiled gently at her as she
took her place. “It looks to be a very beautiful ceremony,” he said.
“Thank you.” She turned back to Mina and Mako. “Do I look alright?
Is my hair good? Tie straight?”
“I think your tie is gay, actually, is that alright?”
“Mina.”
“You look great, buddy.”
“Very handsome.”
“Okay.” She took a deep breath. “Okay.” Haruka wiped her
hands on her pants. “Do you still have the rings?”
“Yes. I still think it’s a pity you didn’t go with a ring
bear though.”
“That wasn’t even funny the first time,” Mako said.
“It was a little funny. Haruka thought it was funny, didn’t
you?”
“No.”
“You’re a dirty dirty liar.”
Haruka chuckled, and just then the music started.
They’d opted for a small wedding party, mostly to keep
Michiru’s family from making a fuss over who was included. Setsuna came down
the aisle first, her stately figure giving the hall a weight it had lacked
before. Every perfectly measured step she took seemed to say, this is a day I will mark in time. This
celebration is a duty I take as seriously as any other.
Rei’s steps were different. Rei’s steps were short, halting,
resisting the approach to the three dumbasses at the front even though she’d
rehearsed the perfect wedding walk. Her smile was plastered on and she
pointedly avoided eye contact with any of them.
There was a pause once she arrived, followed by a swelling
of the music. Every guest rose and turned to the entrance.
Outside the sun was bright, and for a moment Haruka could
only see Michiru’s figure fuzzily outlined in the light. Her appearance came
into focus slowly. First, her hands, curved around the gauzy base of her
bouquet. Then, her dress, the simple cap sleeves, the fitted bodice, the way it
flowed from her waist to the ground to make it look like she glided instead of
walked. Her hair was done in a loose up-do, with several curls left to frame
her face. And her face… Haruka allowed herself her anticipated tears. Michiru looked
more beautiful than Haruka had ever seen her, which should have been impossible
but wasn’t. Her smile was soft and cheeks flushed. When their eyes met, Haruka
saw that hers looked a little glassy. She bit her tongue to keep from crying too
hard. Somehow, she’d never expected any tears from Michiru in all this.
Mina rubbed her arm gently. “She loves you, buddy,” she
whispered.
Haruka wiped her eyes as Michiru handed her flowers off to
Rei. She couldn’t focus on what the officiant was saying. Michiru was here,
this was real, she would really be her wife. It was so wonderfully impossible
that she could barely remember how to breathe.
“Now, the brides have written their own wedding vows.
Haruka, Michiru, please face each other and hold hands. Haruka, please speak
your vows.”
Somehow, the simple act of touching on this most important
of days rendered her speechless for several long seconds. Michiru’s hands, held
in hers like they had been countless times, reached in to touch her heart. She closed
her eyes.
“You know,” she said, instead of the opening she’d written for
her vows. “I woke up this morning so afraid that this wasn’t really happening.
That there had been some giant mistake, and I couldn’t really be lucky enough
to be marrying you. But I guess, somehow, I am.” She stroked her thumb over
Michiru’s knuckles. “I never would have believed that someone so incredible
could love me. You’ve saved my life so many times and in so many ways. And now
we get to make a life. Together. I wish I could promise you that I’ll be the
best spouse ever, but I probably won’t be. I’m going to get cookie crumbs in the
bed sheets and fall asleep during your favorite French flims, even if I try
really hard to care about them.” An appreciative chuckle rose from their
guests. “But there are some things I can promise, and I’d like to do that now.”
She took a breath. “I promise to love you, always, for the rest of my life, and
probably longer. I promise to care for you when you’re sick, or tired, or just
want me there. I promise to be your home, your warmth, your family. I promise
that while I’ll never be perfect, I’ll never stop trying.”
“You are perfect, Haruka.”
Haruka laughed as tears started falling. “I don’t think you’re
supposed to say anything yet, Michi.” She took a breath. “But most of all, I
promise to do everything I can to make you every bit as happy as you make me.”
The officiant smiled and tilted his head. “Now, Michiru,
please speak your vows.”
“This may or may not surprise many people here, but
sometimes, I am a cynic. I never believed in love, or marriage, or real
happiness. Not until I met you.” She looked into Haruka’s eyes. Her smile was
sure but a little wobbly at the edges. “You are my proof that there’s good in
the word. You are my light in the darkness. You are my one and only, who I will
love for the rest of my life. I will do everything in my power to make you the
happiest woman alive, Haruka.”
Haruka smiled and tried not to sob. “I already am.”
“Now who’s speaking out of turn?”
She blushed. “Sorry.”
“I will be by your side through hell, through tragedy,
through anything life throws at us. And I will love you, even when I cannot
love myself. This I promise you.”
“Will the best woman please bring forward the rings.”
“Sure, but first, the best woman will bring forward some
tissues.” The guests laughed as Mina dabbed at Haruka’s face with a handkerchief.
Her own cheeks were damp. She handed over the rings and returned to her place.
“Haruka, place your ring on Michiru’s finger and repeat
after me. With this ring, I thee wed.”
“With this ring, I thee wed.” She slid the band onto Michiru’s
finger. It fit in place like it was always meant to be there, like Michiru’s
hands had been waiting to bear a symbol of her relationship to Haruka.
“Michiru.”
“With this ring, I thee wed.” They matched, now. Haruka
laced her fingers into Michiru’s, ring hand against ring hand.
“Then with the power vested in me, I pronounce you wedded
wives. You may now kiss.”
Haruka leaned down, Michiru’s hand still in hers. It was a
kiss like any other, except it wasn’t—she was kissing her wife. Her wife tasted sweeter than her girlfriend, than her fiancé.
Haruka’s heart felt full and light at the same time.
The music played again, and Rei handed Michiru back her bouquet.
As they walked down the aisle, Haruka couldn’t stop beaming. “You’re my wife,”
she whispered.
“And you’re mine.”
The moment they stepped outside and out of sight of the
guests, Michiru pulled her down into a deep kiss.
“Hey, nerds, the officiant is going to be out in a moment so
we can sign the marriage license, save this for tonight.”
Haruka laughed and pulled Mina into a headlock. “Who are you
calling a nerd?”
“Did you see how much you were crying? Huge, soppy nerd.”
“Ara, I seem to recall your eyes weren’t dry the whole time.”
“You definitely sniffled a bit,” Mako added with an elbow nudge.
“Yeah, well so did Rei.”
“That’s a lie!”
“It’s not,” Setsuna said.
“Ladies, are you ready?” The officiant laid out the license
for them. Haruka signed first, hand only shaking a little. Michiru went next,
more steady, and then their witnesses.
Haruka hugged Michiru from behind. “I’m not dreaming, am I?
You’re my wife?”
“I know dreams quite well, Haruka. This is not one of them.”
She kissed Haruka’s hand just below her wedding band. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“Photo time!” Mina half dove into them and snapped a selfie
with her phone. “First pic with the marrieds being gross, aw yeah.”
“The real photographer’s over there,” Setsuna pointed out. “We
may not want to keep her waiting.”
“I guess not.” Haruka kissed Michiru’s cheek. “We’ll have tonight.”
“Actually, my love,” she said, taking her wife’s hand, “I do
believe we’ll have forever.”
In some universes, Mina can save the world. In this one, she can’t even save Haruka from herself.

Feel better, buddy, they love each other and I love you.
CONGRATS YOU ARE ALL
TRYING TO MAKE ME SOB
Oh my god snumple I love
this so much—you know how much I love your style anyhow, but their expressions
are too perfect and their touch is too loving and haruka’s little plaid shirt
and she’s just so happy with her girl right now and I am going to die I love
this so much. God bless you, I love all of your art so much but when you draw
harumichi it’s always a personal gift to me.

I drew a bunch today and I just liked the feeling of this sleepy picnic sketch, so I thought I’d share
Since you’re sick, I decided to go head and write something for the “One taking care of the other when they’re hurt or sick” prompt. (Since that’s a free space, I’d like to enter for the school life girls) I hope you enjoy and get feeling better!
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“Alright buddy.” Minako propped Haruka up with more pillows, careful not to move her too quickly. “Rei swears by this. Says it clears her up every time.”
“Okay.” Haruka’s head was pounding too hard to think of the questions she should have been asking. She took the cup. Mina guided her hands to her mouth to keep the steady.
For all of about three milliseconds, it seemed fine. Then everything from her lips to her throat started to burn. Her nose started to run; tears streamed down her face as though she had just watched the end of Titanic. “What the hell is that?” The question would have been better asked before drinking it.
“Well. Water, mostly. A little salt. And cayenne powder.” Minako handed over a box of kleenex. Haruka wiped at her face. “Do you feel any better?”
“No!” She felt very decidedly worse, the pain in her mouth now beating in time with the one in her head, and the contents of the mixture settling precariously in her already shaky stomach.
“Huh.” Minako smiled. There was a hint of sheepish apology, but it got quickly replaced by cockiness. “At least we can look forward to telling Rei she was wrong.”
“That… doesn’t help me at all.”
“I believe I know something that would help. In fact… I believe I have told you several times what would help.”
Haruka buried her head under the blankets as Michiru approached. Her heels clicked across the wood floor, announcing Haruka’s doom in even steps. Doc-tor. Doc-tor. Doc-tor.
“I don’t need to go, Michi, Mina’s here.”
“Mina is leaving.”
“No I’m n–” Haruka could not see through her blanket wall, but she knew the exact glare Michiru had employed. She counted that it had never been used against her as one of her greatest blessings. “Uh, right, sorry buddy, I’ve got a thing. Get well soon.”
As the door shut behind Minako, Michiru pulled the blankets off Haruka’s head. “You’ve got a bad bug, love.” She stroked the hair away from Haruka’s warm forehead. “Please get checked out.”
Haruka groaned and cuddled into her pillows. “I don’t need to. I’m fine.”
“Ah yes, I can see you are the picture of health.” Michiru sat next to her on the bed and rubbed her head, her fingers soft and light enough to ease the pain instead of aggravating it. “What can I do to get you to go?”
“Nothing.”
Michiru’s mouth pressed into a thin line. “I don’t wish to be harsh, but I do know people who can take you there with force. I could call them, or…” She leaned in very close to whisper in Haruka’s ear, the way that got a very enjoyable reaction when Haruka wasn’t sick. “You can negotiate the terms for going. Doesn’t that sound more fun?”
“Nnnnn fine.” Haruka pouted, but Michiru was mysteriously unaffected. “You take care of me today, and if somehow I’m not better I’ll go in the morning.”
Michiru sighed. “I suppose that’s better than nothing. What do you need?”
“Something to stop the burning.”
Michiru left and came back with ice cream. Cookie dough, one of Haruka’s favorites. “With this suffice?”
“I think so.” Haruka took the bowl. “Except…” She looked up at Michiru with her best puppy eyes. “It will make me cold.”
“Oh dear. How shall we remedy this?”
Haruka scooted over and held up the covers. “Cuddles?”
“I suppose I can do that.” Michiru slid into bed and pulled Haruka over to nestle at her side. “You’re burning up, love.”
“I took a Tylenol before Mina’s thing,” Haruka said between bites. The ice cream relieved that pain, but even with Michiru there she started to shiver. She set the bowl aside unfinished.
Michiru kissed her head. “I hate seeing you like this.”
“It’ll pass. Always does.” She nuzzled herself even closer. “And it’s not so bad with you here.”
Michiru was quiet for a long moment. She rubbed Haruka’s back in a way that made her sleepy. “Well, I’m always going to be here, alright? I promise.”
“I know, Michi. You’re very sweet like that. Sweeter than ice cream…”
As Haruka began to snore, Michiru closed her eyes. The weight of Haruka’s head on her chest made her feel aware of her heart, both the literal beat and the figurative warmth. Quietness settled around them like a fourth blanket. She’d drag Haruka to the doctor early the next morning, but she supposed the postponement wasn’t so bad. The steady rhythm of Haruka’s breathing made her own eyelids heavy, and soon she joined her in a light and gentle sleep.
AH man Sam, I enjoyed this whole thing (WHO AMONG US DOES NOT ADORE NURSE MINAKO WHOSE GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT IS SHE CAN TELL REI SHE WAS WRONG) but that last paragraph from beginning to end is just like, my heart, oh my god, stop (never stop). It’s tender and well written and man the thing about Michiru’s heart killed me, slayed me right there. There are so many excellent lines in this, THANK YOU
What do you do with an plague-filled lesbian? YOU CAN CERTAINLY LET ME KNOW in our giveaway.
YOU MEAN YOU TWO WERE FOOLING THIS ENTIRE TIME
YOU SCOUNDRELS
WITH YOUR PERFECTLY TIMED WIND MACHINE
This moment makes me legitimately so emotional.
We go from their sadness–they’re mourning their own lives, really, and the happiness they found there, and that’s something S-era Michiru and Haruka couldn’t do. They found love and happiness, and they give themselves a few moments to mourn what they know is coming.
But then it turns to determination. They WILL succeed where others have failed. They will do that right thing, and sacrifice their lives as they have already given their goodness, because that is WHAT THEY DO. The hard thing.
And the great thing is that its that hard thing now more than ever.
They have so much to lose, now.
But unlike 110, this is a joint venture. This is a DECISION, more than a reaction.
GOOD SWEET GOD PLEASE
That sounds like such a good version I wanna watch that also what kind of beast would Michiru be I wonder
I mean obviously she’s teal, but that’s a given
WHAT IF SHE’S AN AQUATIC BEAST that’s why her castle as an indoor pool
Haruka would make a really good Belle too
AN AQUATIC BEAST OH MY GOD YES
Maybe she’d be scaly and a bit terrifying, and she can’t understand when Haruka genuinely wants to dance with her, when she doesn’t flinch away from how cold and slimy her hands are.
I’m having a really self indulgent day so HERE’S SOME SUPER SELF INDULGENT FIC. There is literally no point in this except I’m being a feelings blob and projecting it on Haruka.
The Letter
~800 words
Haruka figured it was a blessing the box arrived when Michiru wasn’t home. She wasn’t exactly the best at hiding things anyway, and she knew there was no way she’d have controlled her face when she saw “C. Tennoh” in the return address line. Her first thought was to chuck it. Throw it out unopened, keep the happy distance she’d maintained these past several years.
But she was curious. The unopened box would loom larger in her mind than whatever demon was stuffed inside.
She did not need scissors to break it open. If Haruka used too much tape to wrap things– and she was assured she did by Mina every birthday– her mother used far too little. There was a note among the crumbled newspaper packing, distinguishable only because her mother had used a red pen.
Haruka
I saw your engagement in the paper. I thought you might like to have some of this.
Love
Mom
Haruka felt relieved she’d written nothing more. No questions, no requests for a reply. It was just the bare minimum for Haruka’s mother to feel she had Done Something, and then they could both continue with their lives. That was probably the best wedding gift Haruka could ask for.
Still, though, there was the question of what she’d actually sent. Haruka lifted the first newspaper slowly. Nestled beneath was a wooden car covered in dinosaur stickers– Haruka’s first racer. She smiled at that. She’d forgotten about it entirely. Beneath that was an item more carefully wrapped. Haruka pulled the paper off gingerly to reveal a mug, the last remaining piece of her grandmother’s china set, saved from sale by a broken and glued handle. Something caught in her throat; Haruka had not expected anything actually thoughtful. She set it on the table with shaking hands.
There seemed to be nothing left in the box, but as Haruka emptied the rest of the crumpled newspapers she spotted an envelope at the bottom.
TO: FUTURE ME (Haruka) was scrawled in big letters across the front. There had been some assignment in middle school, Haruka recalled, to write a letter to your future self. She could not remember when they were supposed to open them. Now seemed as good a time as any. The seal on the back was already ripped. Haruka chose not to think on whether it was a teacher or her mother who’d read it.
Dear Future Me,
I’m not really sure what to say. I hope you exist, I guess. They said we’re supposed to talk about our hopes and stuff, so I’ll do that.
I hope you I you have a really cool car. Maybe you spent a lot of money on it. I hope you have a lot of money to spend on cars. I also hope you have a really beuti beautiful wi handsome h beautiful wife. They said no one would read these so I can say that. I hope she is more beautiful than anyone I’ve ever seen and she loves you a lot. And you love her. That would be really cool. But if it doesn’t happen I hope I don’t make you feel bad. Maybe love’s not for us you me.
I think I can count this as two paragraphs. That’s the minimum. I think I’m also supposed to say I hope you don’t do drugs, but I don’t care.
Sincerly,
Haruka (age 12)
Haruka was caught somewhere between laughing and crying. She found herself with a pen and paper before she could think it through.
Hey little buddy,
You might not believe this, but love is for us me you. I promise you’re gonna have the most beautiful wife in the world. I’m gonna marry her in June. Hang in there.
Sincerely,
Haruka (age 26)
Haruka read it over and picked up the phone. “Hey, Sets, I uh. I have a really big favor to ask.”
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“Excuse me,” a tall, dark woman stood up from the park bench as Haruka ran past. She stopped. “Are you Haruka?”
“Uhm.” Haruka eyed the woman cautiously. She didn’t look like anyone from the school, which was a relief. There was something kinder in her eyes than what Haruka was used to seeing in teachers. “Maybe.”
“I have a letter for you.” She reached into the pocket of her jacket and pulled out an envelope.
“You what?” Haruka took it. TO: PAST ME (Haruka). “Is this a joke?”
But suddenly, the woman was gone.
There was, she supposed, no harm in opening it. She did, and read it slowly. It was a joke, it had to be. Someone read her letter and thought they’d have a laugh. They’d even mimicked her writing. Jerk.
And yet… she slipped it into her pocket instead of throwing it away. A little part of Haruka’s heart clung to the possibility it was real. She couldn’t deny, as she started running again, that she felt just a little bit lighter. Maybe, maybe, good things were coming someday.