Mako is very much of the mindset that sympathy is an empty
feeling that leads to empty gestures. I think this would lead to some of the
only fights Mako and Usagi ever have. There’s a year when Usagi figures out the
anniversary of Mako’s parents’ death, and brings her flowers. Mako’s
purposefully never told any of them (besides Rei) when it was, because she
lives with the loss every day and the idea that people have one day a year to
give her sympathy to check off caring for her infuriates her. (It’s also not
the day she’s saddest, because it’s a day she remembers the fear and shock. It’s
their birthdays and father’s/mother’s day that give her pause as she feels all
the happiness they had and all the happiness they missed having together). Mako shuts the door in Usagi’s face and
struggles to remember Usagi loves her and it isn’t the same pity she got from
her first guardians or her old boyfriend or any of them. (It helps that Usagi
goes back the next day, flowers again in hand, and says that Rei told her off
but she’d like Mako to have the bouquet anyway, because Usagi knows she likes
them).
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YES SAM WRITING: Haruka, Love
Haruka has always classified herself as unlovable. With her
mother she was alternately an asset and a burden, but never a beloved child.
(She was absolutely the kid who dreamed her father was a good man who loved
her, but was kept away and one day would swoop in and make up for everything he’d
missed. Her mother was absolutely the woman who squashed that out of her.) Growing
up she never had friends that stuck around, both because many were fair-weather
friends and Haruka’s life rarely had fair weather for long, and because by
nature Haruka felt she had to hide things—her financial situation, her budding
lesbianism, the way girls’ clothes felt so wrong on her body. By the time she
meets Michiru, she can’t believe anyone would love her.
And Michiru doesn’t break that in her. Even as Haruka begins
to believe Michiru loves her, it’s so big and intense that sometimes Haruka
doesn’t feel like it’s about her. There’s desire and attraction and high stakes
and who wouldn’t fall in love when it
might be their last chance to.
It’s years later, in a bar with Mina, that Haruka gets the
tiniest inkling that she’s really worth something. The friendship between them
has developed into something comfortable and constant, and Haruka’s sure any
day now Mina will lose interest. But then she says something that makes Mina
laugh, and Mina sets down her drink and says “God, I love you buddy.” And
Haruka feels it down to her toes. She wants to ask if she means it, but doesn’t,
but it’s not the last time Mina says it and it’s not the last time Mina shows
it, and Haruka comes to the slow and quiet realization that if two people love
her, in two very different ways, that maybe it’s at least a little to do with
her, and she’s maybe not as broken as she’s always believed.
docholligay replied to your video “it’s 2 am have the cheesy story of how we met”
ALSO WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CHECK YOUR HAT
THAT IS A GOOD QUESTION. I read online after that there’s a link between hats and gang violence, but also I can’t help but feel they’re just trying to make a few extra buck off every third butch that comes in lol (it’s all hats too, you can’t even put your beanie in your pocket or anything)
docholligay replied to your video “it’s 2 am have the cheesy story of how we met”
i love this ahaha what is it about awkward butches that charms so
you’re very sweet doc I’m glad my awkwardness has gotten me so far in life
sailorsunspot replied to your video “it’s 2 am have the cheesy story of how we met”
Yallre hella adorable, my god. But YEAH MY STORY IS VERY SIMILAR TO YOURS FRIEND THANKS FOR SHARING!!
TALE AS OLD AS TIME, GAYS GO TO A BAR. It’s been fun to hear how many people meet like this, and also have people be like “wow you met the old fashion way” because initially we were so unsure how to present the fact that we met at a bar lol
docholligay replied to your post ““So much of the time,” Michiru
whispered, “I feel like it’s all a…”
YOU’RE ALIVE
ALIVE WITH POOR TIME MANAGEMENT SKILLS BUT ALIVE INDEED
Also this is exactly my brand of pain, I love all of this, so much, it’s
so beautifully painful how she knows Haruka is her one selfishness, and
her voice is strong here
AHHH THANK YOU
I’m rusty but Michiru’s feelings are so interesting, I’ll hopefully get back in the swing of things because she’s such an exquisite complex mess and I love writing her
dreamshapers-universe replied to your post “It’s good I’m not with my fiancee this Thanksgiving, because her…”
Wooow WHAT who does that
RIGHT? I know certain family members of mine would do the same thing tho.
docholligay replied to your post “It’s good I’m not with my fiancee this Thanksgiving, because her…”
ahahaha I am like you
“Y’know, *I* prefer the glitter purple dilso but Jill’s SUCHA TRADITIONALIST
AHAHAHAHA “Well, you know, lesbian sex is just like straight sex, except we don’t fake our orgasms.”
docholligay replied to your post “[[MOR] this is kind of horrible but I’ve always wished I had a…”
You can always come here for thanksgiving and hanukkah and passover although I LOVE all three
YOU’RE SO SWEET DOC
In different contexts I might like holidays, they’ve just always either been tense family time or else very lonely, and I’ve always felt the pressure to make something of them.
docholligay replied to your post “A Happy Thing”
Baby butches get so excited to see someone like them
Fun side story– my fiancee made me cry on the subway ON PURPOSE last night because I mentioned this and she ran with it and the thought that I could be even one girl’s first butch, that I could make a difference to even one girl makes me feel SO MUCH.
This poor guy by us kept looking so confused because I was laughing at telling her to stop but also just. crying.
docholligay replied to your post “27 FOR MINA REI MICHIRU AND HARUKA”
Mina’s promiscuity (for me) is wrapped up in attention and power. Sex just doesn’t MEAN anything to her. LOve, though, oh h ho actually liking soeone, and copping to it, and sharing with someone, now that’s sacary
YES THIS.
27 FOR MINA REI MICHIRU AND HARUKA
THIS ONE IS FUN I’M GOING FOR IT
27.
How they’re mischaracterised
Mina gets simplified too much for my taste, she is so so many things and it’s complicated, she’s one of the least straightforward characters and THAT IS WHAT I LOVE. People give her a shinier, cleaner, more positive spin than I like.
I also get peeved with most flavors of Super Promiscuous Minako, because I so rarely feel like it’s done for anything besides OHOHO GODDESS OF LOVE and that’s less a mischaracterization as it is just ignoring all the stuff you can get into with that for her, PLEASE TALK TO ME ABOUT ALL thE WAYS BEING CASUAL AND OPEN IS NEITHER reALLY ALL THAT OPEN OR CASUAL FOR MINAKO.
REI IS MISCHARACTERIZED AS LIKING MEN. My hold on Rei isn’t as tight as on the other three, so I have fewer complaints.
Now Haruka and Michiru I’m basically FIGHT ME NAOKO because I hate softer characterizations for Michiru/ABSTENT charactizations for Michiru AND I HATE FEMME HARUKA AND I HATE COOL SUAVE CREEPY HARUKA THE MOST. Anytime Haruka is written as a legitimately cool person I just kind of can’t take it seriously. She’s a pure ridiculous noodle.
Haruka 7!
Favorite pizza toppings
I can see Haruka enjoying sausage and bacon/meat lovers, but I think she is less concerned with the toppings as she is with CAN SHE GET STUFFED CRUST? AND CHEESY BREAD ON THE SIDE? ALSO THE CINNAMON STICKS THING THAT THE BEST/WORST PIZZA CHAINS HAVE??
She only gets particular about toppings when Minako is ordering, because “I don’t care” always either leads to “I got anchovies because I know how much you miss Michiru” or pineapple, because Haruka is firmly in the pineapple on pizza is a sin boat and Mina enjoys both the flavor and watching Haruka pick it off and whine that she can still taste it
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