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OH MY GOD I WROTE THIS BIG RANT YESTERDAY ON MY WAY TO WORK AND TUMBLR ATE IT
But basically I feel like people fall into shitty patterns when they want to ~diversify body types~ and always go for people who will still be appealing (so no one too pushy or abrasive, no one too gnc, etc) BUT who they don’t want to fuck (hence we never see Haruka or Mamoru drawn bigger) and people use activity as an excuse despite every cast member besides Usagi being canonically super awesome at sports (which is boring, but you don’t get to ignore it if you’re also leaning on it)
And also I 1000% believe Michiru is thrown in just for good person points, because she performs femininity at such a level that people still feel comfortable (and I never see people having fictional crushes on her the way I do with Haruka or Mams or even like, Rei)
For the most part I think this could all be really great (I do think Usagi stuff tends to come from a good place, it’s just that it’s always the usagi-type character in other things) but the fact that it’s always the same characters/character types rubs me so wrong, because it’s the same fat phobia as making the villains big, but repackaged as you can be fat and good IF you are happy and wonderful and/or feminine to the highest degree.
(And like, I have a particular sore spot around the entire culture beyond just fandom of androgyny only being valid and attractive with thinness, because I know so many people who struggle there and *I* struggle there, I was a big kid and while I’m small now it’s always A Thing)
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okay but please tell me all about Mina’s reaction to the Talismans thing in this world
By the time this rolls around Mina and Haruka’s friendship is set (It’s very different than their usual friendship, but they still connect) and there’s a certain extent of Mina REFUSING to let the talismans take Haruka away from her (if destiny can change even this little bit, Mina needs that, she needs Haruka to have a roll not set by their past life)
And with Haruka not wanting the mission of stopping Saturn anyway, Mina takes the Talisman and gives it to Michiru, saying Haruka deserves better than this, Haruka is good and if Michiru wants to kill a little girl she can but Mina won’t let her strip Haruka of her humanity
(And there is never a version of Michiru who does not believe Haruka deserves better, so she does not argue, merely takes the sword and learns to use it)
(There is a good chance this leads to her and Pluto being successful in killing Hotaru. Mina chooses not to dwell on her choice to much)
AU where Michiru is the princess
- Mina’s whole life is suffering
- She is a good soldier she knows her duty but goddamn she wants to put a knife in her princess’s back
- Usagi/Serenity is selfish, absolutely, but Mina can handle it and let love outweigh resentment because it comes from naivete, she sees her as a child. Michiru has none of that, she is cold, her selfish moments have no pretty wrapping
- Michiru’s life is also suffering, she goes from being her parents’ porcelain poseable doll to the perfect protected princess, and there’s no room for her to ever be a person
- She tells Beryl to take the crystal, take the kingdom, take the whole goddamn world because there’s never been anything in it for Michiru
- Well, there was one thing, but she died alone in the snow for a destiny Michiru doesn’t even want
- (On Haruka’s lips she tasted a simpler life, but even that she couldn’t trust because they were princess and knight, and what feelings were real and what were Haruka playing her assigned role?)
- Beryl has everything she wanted– not the crystal, but the moon laid low
- she doesn’t take the crystal. she sees now her greatest revenge– the moon princess gets to live on, knowing her soldiers died for her, knowing she gave up, knowing she’ll never have the life she wants
- there is no resurrection, the crystal too is cruel at times
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PLEASE TELL ME HARUKA STILL HATES SEIYA THO
Haruka hates Seiya EVEN MORE because along with her canon insecurity and distrust, there’s also jealousy because a) she’s meeting Seiya at the peak of her self-hatred and b) Seiya gets to have this ease in her eyes, Seiya doesn’t have to make the hard choices Seiya gets to just throw in with the inners and be fine, and even after she knows what Seiya’s gone through it doesnt go away
AU where the starlights showed up the same time as the outers
- OUTERS ARE WAY MORE OSTRACIZED BECAUSE THE STARLIGHTS ARE THE SAME AGE OF THE INNERS AND IN THIS VERSION THE GENUINE CHARM OF THE STARLIGHTS IS PLAYED UP
- Rather than “everyone has a crush on Haruka” everyone has their newcomer they’re most interested in (perhaps to rub salt in the wound, Usagi has a five second crush on Haruka because baby’s first butch, but then Seiya immediately shows up and is gregarious and more of what Usagi really likes in a person and her idolization of Haruka is so short lived)
- The Starlights do the reasonable thing and team up with the inners, because this is not their fight but when their fight comes, they want to have the most powerful people on the planet on their side
- Minako and Rei don’t trust the Starlights, there’s too much they don’t say and Mina and Rei know too much about their own loyalties to not recognize the same ruthlessness in someone else
- They’re the main bridge between the inners and outers, being the types that Haruka and Michiru gravitate towards
- INSTEAD OF HORSEBOY SUPERS THE SEASON END WOULD LEAD TO A SEASON ABOUT THE HUGE CONFLICT BETWEEN THE STARLIGHTS AND USAGI (and everyone else) BECAUSE THEIR PLANET WAS DESTROYED AND HOW DARE SHE RISK THAT FOR ONE GIRL.
- you know that one stupid episode where Haruka and Michiru fight Usagi? That but with the Starlights and a season long and it’s justified because they LIVED the consequence she couldn’t accept as a possibility, it doesn’t matter that it turned out okay because they knew she didn’t feel the weight of it and they’re traumatized
- Also just. THe whole idea of people who lived through their planet being destroyed seeing the awakening of a soldier who’s purpose is to destroy the planet. That’s some GOOD SHIT. And their sympathy would switch from the inners to the outers SO FAST, if the outers accept the starlights AREN’T the outside threat it’s a hell of a team up
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I think you could do a LOT of interesting things with Taiki
I WANNA TRY. I’ve always been hesitant to write much with the Starlights, but I’m at a point where I don’t care about an drama and and actually want to do the leg work to male sense of their backstory and personalities.
I’ve had THOUGHTS about Taiki for a while, mostly around her particular brand of awkward nerd, like, canon almost gives us hipster-lit-nerd Taiki, but it always falls back on making her rivals with Ami, which she IS, but it’s because they have contrasting types of intelligence, not the same (just like Ami CAN read Taiki isn’t BAD at math/science, but she’s not gifted in it and she can write circles around Ami, especially when it comes to creative stuff)
Granted I am absolutely basing this on that one episode where Taiki quotes poetry at Mako and Usagi (Whitman, I think?). THIS NERD LANDS ON A PLANET AND IMMEDIATELY STARTS READING POETRY IN MULTIPLE LANGUAGES.
Also based somewhat on that ep, I pair her more with Mako than Ami, I think they’re complimentary.
Petrichor – The smell of dry rain on the ground. (It’s actually rain on dry ground, prompt writer) Haruka
YOUR CORRECTION MADE ME SNORT
This is rough, but my goal was to get something out and I did that.
——
It reminded Haruka of a time long past, when she’d run to
purposefully get caught in the rain. She’d run until she felt the first drops
start, feel them mix with the sweat on her skin, and wait for the sky to open
for her fully. Walking miles in the rain was a misery, but a simple misery. She
could strip down at the end and say she was stupid for getting caught, that her
shoes would be soaked for days and it pissed her off, and for a little while
she had an easy pain to focus on.
The drops got more frequent, sprinkling dark dots into the
sand. Haruka breathed deep to let the scent wash over her.
“Papa, it’s raining!”
Haruka snapped to attention and rummaged through the bag
she’d put in their wagon. “You want your coat, sweetie?”
“No, it’s warm.” Himeka sat down on the jungle gym bridge
and let her feet dangle. “But nobody’s here.”
“That’s true. They’re all a bit smarter than your papa.”
“No! You’re the smartest. You made me queen of the
playground, see?” She stood up and held out her arms. “It’s all mine.”
“Just be careful, it might get slippery. Your highness.”
Himeka laughed. “I’m your highnest!” She came down the slide
and hopped over to Haruka. “That means you got to pull me all the way home.”
“Does it now?”
“No questions. Highnest!”
Haruka chuckled and scooped her into the wagon. “I suppose
you’re right. Onwards, then.” She pulled the wagon along, somewhat regretting
packing the equivalent of a second Himeka’s worth of stuff into their bag.
“Through the puddles, Papa! Puddles!”
Haruka ran so water splashed up the sides of the wagon. The
aches started sooner now, almost as soon as her socks soaked through. In the
days of the war, she never thought she’d ache as much as she did then. It was a
different wariness now, but it made Haruka chuckle. She’d been so miserable in
the midst of it, and now the ache in her bones was a happy one.
She and Himeka stripped out of their clothes together when
they got in. They sat in front of the dryer wrapped in fluffy towels. “I used
to run in the rain a lot you know.”
Himeka nodded. “It’s fun. Like trouble, but without getting in trouble.”
“I didn’t think of it that way.” Haruka laughed. “I think it
was more like putting myself in time out.”
“That’s silly, Papa.” Himeka frowned. “You didn’t do
anything bad.”
Haruka smiled and ruffled Himeka’s hair. There was little
point, she found, in explaining her guilt, especially to a five year old with
no idea of what had happened. “Your papa is a bit silly sometimes.”
“It’s okay, I’m silly too.” She lifted her towel around her
and scooted over into Haruka’s lap. “We can be silly together.”
Haruka pulled her into her arms. “You’re the best girl, you
know that?” She leaned against the laundry room wall and let the hum of the
dryer lull them both to sleep.
Michiru, Autumn
This is more mini-fic than headcanon and is only tangentially related to autumn, BUT OH WELL
———
“We do not cry in public, Michiru,” her mother had said on her first day of school, when the fear of the unknown had threatened to well up in her eyes. “You are a Kaioh.”
She’d put a hand on the small of Michiru’s back to fix her posture and sent her forth, more a wind up doll than a child. The other kids were wild, frizzy haired and careless. Michiru stayed contained. When the teachers said they were to finger paint their name tags, Michiru asked for a brush, and when they came around to write names over the paint Michiru’s was already there in careful blue lettering. She had been there to excel, to show off the tutoring her family had paid for. She was not there to learn, and most certainly not to make friends.
And now she hoped the exact opposite for her daughter.
“It’ll be okay, papa,” Himeka said, standing on tip toe as Haruka crouched to hug her. Her little Mary Janes were already scuffed at the toes from the walk there.
“Are you gonna be okay? You can call us if you need us.” Haruka’s tears left little wet dots in the shoulder of Himeka’s sweater.
“I’ll be fine, papa. Kimi’s in my class, remember? We ‘quested.”
“How are you so grown up already?” Haruka stood and wiped her eyes. “We’re gonna miss you so much.”
“I’ll miss you too, papa.” She turned to Michiru now. The confidence on her eyes gave way to vulnerability. Michiru crouched to meet her. “Will I be okay?” She whispered into her ear.
Michiru hugged her tight. “You’re going to be great, little bear.”
Himeka let out a little sob. Michiru stroked her hair. “We’re gonna be right here at the end of the day, and you can tell us all about your teachers and Kimi and all the other friends you make.”
“What if I don’t make any?”
“Then…” Michiru but back words about the other children not being worthy of her. “Then you’ll try again tomorrow. But you’ll always have us.”
Himeka nodded. Michiru gave her a kiss on her cheek and watched she ran to find Kimi.
“You’re crying,” Haruka said, taking her hand.
Michiru laughed. “I am.”
“I don’t think I’ve ever seen you cry in public before.”
Michiru leaned into her. “It’s been a long time. But this is worth it.”
Rei, Sleep
God, Rei is such a I’LL SLEEP WHEN I’M DEAD person.
Especially once she’s older and being her full duty and career-oriented self,
she’s constantly running on too little sleep and too much caffeine. Any night
over six hours is hugely indulgent to her.
She doesn’t crash nearly as much as anyone expects her to (this is a
constant source of aggravation to Mina, who crashes HARD when she goes without
sleep for too long).
When she does sleep, she sleeps hard, and she doesn’t have
visions in dreams the same way Michiru does. She does talk in her sleep (which I’ve
headcanoned before), and she’s 100% a sleep cuddler, much to her chagrin in the
morning. Mina alternates between taking the piss out of her for it and trying
to grab a few extra moments of tenderness by not saying anything.
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