Haruka, safe

For much of her life, Haruka feels safest behind the wheel. She knows cars better than her own body, it’s the one place she has full control. No one can catch her, no one can kick her out or kick her down or take it all away. Not even herself. Sometimes she feels like the worst parts of herself get left behind as she accelerates, and the faster she goes the easier she can breathe. 

It would kill her to say how long she didn’t feel that way with Michiru, how long her fear stood between them, how long she didn’t relax and didn’t breathe and kept track of where she could sleep if it all went wrong. How long she fought it happening. How long she convinced herself that growing feeling was wrong, that she couldn’t be safe with anyone, that she was stupid for every inkling of belief.

It’s a quiet night, a nothing night, when it finally breaks in her. Michiru wakes to find her crying, and for the first time, Haruka doesn’t try to hide.

I have SO many feelings about the second season

I dug back to see your posts about it, and YES I agree with a lot of it. 

Though I’m way more aggravated with the Tahani/Jason stuff than the Eleanor/Chidi, but also WHY ARE THEY NOT ALL NEEDING TO BE PUSHED TOGETHER? They played lip service to the idea of all or none, but then it didn’t actually play out. (I also low key feel like Jason is a perpetual corner they write themselves into, but that’s a whole other thing.) (Also there was so little of Eleanor and Tahani playing off each other this season, I don’t even particularly ship them but I feel like their relationship got put too firmly on the back burner.)

BUT at the same time, I love absolutely everything they did with Michael and Janet this season. I think seeing both of them take on humanity is so interesting, and Michael’s relationship with Eleanor is pitch-perfect for me. I will be VERY disappointed if season three keeps them removed from the action. 

🔥anything tumblr

tumblr’s current trend of HAHAH LESBIANS ARE SO DUMB is really aggravating to me. The oblivious stuff is very real, but it’s caught on in a weird way, and I’ve also seen a lot of posts about how lesbians will let a pretty girl do anything, lesbians go all Neanderthal over titties, etc. It’s a new face of infantilizing us. Before it was the desexualized ~holding hands having picnics uwu~ and now it’s that we’re sexual, but also helpless dumb lumps. I am PROBABLY over reacting, but I’m a grump and idk, I’d like lesbians to be seen as fully formed people.

🔥Marriage

Marriage can both not be the be-all end of of gay/LGBT rights AND still be incredibly important. It’s not really about love being equal, but having an equal access to benefits, both legal and social, and it’s NOT heteronormative to engage with those benefits, including through taking the same last name. 

docholligay replied to your post “��Miracle romance”

(Also lbr I’m Usagi/Seiya trash)

SOMETHING I ALMOST SAID FOR THIS ONE IS I THINK THE IDEA MIRACLE ROMANCE TRIES TO GET AT IS “A LOVE THAT CAN DEFY ALL OBSTACLES” BUT LIKE YOU SAY, IT TRIPS ON ITS OWN CONCEPT OF DESTINY, AND USAGI/SEIYA ACTUALLY CAN HOLD THAT IDEA A LOT BETTER?

Love in spite of destiny instead of because of it is always more interesting to me. 

🔥 michiru kaioh

MICHIRU EXISTS OUTSIDE OF HARUKA

MICHIRU DESERVES TO GET DEVELOPMENT AND FOCUS ON HER OWN AND NO VERSION HAS EVER DONE HER JUSTICE

I WOULD KILL A MAN FOR A MYU WHERE MICHIRU GETS HER OWN SONG

I WOULD ALSO KILL A MAN FOR MICHIRU TO HAVE HER OWN ANIME EPISODES. 

MICHIRU IS THE STRONGEST CHARACTER IN SAILOR MOON, AND HER STRENGTH IS NOT DEPENDENT ON HER GIRLFRIEND. MICHIRU IS HER WHOLE OWN PERSON. 

ALSO I LOVE HER

🔥Steven universe

OH MAN THIS IS THE ONE I HAVE TO START WITH

My unpopular opinion is that Steven Universe… is a cartoon. It is a cartoon that sometimes pushes boundaries and does some good, but it’s just a cartoon, it’s not the holy grail of television/lgbt rights/whatever and it’s not some demonic hell show sinisterly promoting ~problematic~ ~toxic~ ideals. 

it’s a cartoon. it’s important to people (including me!), but it is not and cannot be perfect, and taking it so seriously is just… off putting.  (I don’t mean seriously as in theorizing or analyzing or even critiquing, I mean casting moral aspirations on people who respond/react to things certain ways, or expecting the show to align with the exact minutia of your beliefs and ideals. )

Haunt Me

Leave a “Haunt Me” in my ask, and I’ll write a drabble about a character watching over someone 

You didn’t specify, so I went with probably not what you had it mind! I hope you still enjoy it, and I apologize in advance for the rhymes.

_____

Minako could only anticipate so much. She’d had the hubris, once, to tell Pluto she was prepared for every possibility. Pluto had smiled, the way Pluto smiled that was more gutting than tears, and said she hadn’t.

And Pluto, of course, had been right.

Minako was prepared for war. She was prepared for destruction. For the dwindling of their humanity as they became gods. She’d thought through scenarios of their past taking over, their future vanishing, of their powers forsaking them at the worst moment.

She was not prepared for this.

A weak heart, the doctor had said.

Minako had nearly laughed in his face. No one who’d known Rei a good thirty seconds would call any part of her weak, and certainly not her stubborn, stupid heart.

“It’s consistent with her family history,” the doctor had said, more to the clipboard than to Minako. “If only we had caught it sooner.”

If only I had caught it sooner! It was stupid, not to think of it. To think that superpowers would steamroll all else. To think they were already gods enough to cheat their genes.

Rei lay quiet now, faded like a ghost, like she was already gone. Minako could not bring herself to go in, to hear the slow beeps that went with the lines on the machine she was hooked up to. She must hate it, all the wires. Any moment, she’d wake up and tell the nurses to stop wasting electricity.

Any moment.

Any moment.

Minako was supposed to keep them all safe. She was supposed to watch over them, she’d done everything, she thought, and yet…

She put her head against the glass. She’d relied on more eyes than just her own. Rei was how she saw, sometimes. They were partners, fitting together so fluidly sometimes it felt like they were a single body, filling each weakness with the other’s strength. How would Minako see now? How could she watch over them without her sight?

And who, now, would watch over Minako?

She felt a gentle hand on her shoulder. Pluto smiled at her once more. “There is still hope.”

“You sound like Usagi.” Minako wiped her face. “But you and me, we know how this ends, don’t we? Knowing isn’t the same as giving up.”

Pluto inclined her head in concession. “Acceptance is just as admirable.”

“I haven’t accepted it.” Minako made a fist against the glass. “I can’t accept it, not until I see.”

“We don’t really know then, do we?” Pluto put her hand next to Minako’s, not quite touching, and began to hum softly. The melody struck something deep in Minako’s soul, something old and sad and slow.

“A song for a vigil.”

“The language is lost now, even to me. I have sung for you many times, even as the words forsook me.”

“Do you remember what it meant?”

“Something like a light for ships in the harbor, and stars for ships at sea. I look out for those I love, and love looks after me.” She traced waves across the glass. “I do not know what future lies before us. But I will watch it come.”

Minako could not be sure if the later was part of the song, or Setsuna’s own sentiment. It wove into the song in her head anyway, and she began to hum along. A light for ships at harbor, stars for ships at sea. If you must go where I cannot, I’ll keep watch for thee.

She kept humming as she took her first steps into that sterile room, as she pulled a plastic chair up to Rei’s bedside. The papery sheets crinkled when she took her hand. I know not what lies before us, and may never understand. But I’ll watch it come beside you, we’ll face it hand in hand.

@docholligay replied to your post “Part six of HaruMichi Beauty and the Beast! See the Masterpost for…”

Also Michiru, I love her, fuck me up, YES

I LOVE HER SO MUCH, she’s honestly probably my favorite character to write, in this and in general, I love how hard I have to dig to get into the heart of the matter with her. 

docholligay
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Also haruka’s EARNESTNESS kills me here, she knows how to fix things, THAT CAN’T BE THAT HARD

One of my favorite things about this AU is I’ve put Haruka in a place where she can be confident in herself and her skills, because she’s well out of her teen years and has had Mina’s support for a long time
One of my other favorite things about this AU is that Haruka’s expectations and confidence often work against her (that’s a thing I love everywhere, and writing it is the most fun)

docholligay
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Also that shit with the mirror I’m dead

Michiru pining for Haruka and feeling she must sacrifice her own happiness for her is MY SHIT, it should be its own genre tbh

docholligay
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The word choice and flow in this AU has been SO GOOD, it just keeps sounding fairytale-like, and I adore it.
also ‘curses are women’s work’ is a great damn line

Ahhhhhhh thank you, language is such a fun thing to play with in this for me, I worried a lot about the tones of the three viewpoints being too dissonant. 
And boy do I have feelings that drove that line, it essentially came from me trying to force the backstory into something that didn’t feel right, and when I realized why it was just right there. 

docholligay
replied to your post “Part five of HaruMichi BatB!! Masterpost link This chapter is a little…”

I love that scene in the garden so much sam–I should be writing with my spare time BUT HERE I AM REREADING THIS CHAPTER

THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY YOU WOULD NOT EVEN BELIEVE, I WATCHED THIS COME IN AT WORK YESTERDAY AND NEARLY CRIED THAAAANK YOU