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Tag: ask meme
Things you said when you were scared
“Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea.”
The terror in your eyes keeps me from rolling mine. Years of hearing about how there was nothing you wanted so much as this, and now you have doubts. “It’s a bit late for that now, Haruka.” Mountains of paperwork and fees and screenings too late.
“But. But what if…” Your knuckles are white against the steering wheel. “What if she doesn’t like me? What if I hurt her?” You look down; you always think that will keep me from seeing that you’re crying.
“Oh Ruka.” I pull you over to me. “She’s going to love you, I promise.” You sniffle into my shoulder. “And you’ll be a great parent.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I do.” I am infinitely more sure about you than I am myself, but that won’t help you now. “We’ve learned from the mistakes everyone made with us. You’re going to take such good care of her. I know you will.”
“But…”
“She’s waiting for us, Ruka.” I stroke your hair. “She’s in there, ready to meet you.”
You put on your brave face and get out of the car. Inside, a woman leads us to the nursery. She picks up a baby and looks at me like she expects me to hold her first, but you’re there, ready. You hold the bundle like she’s the most fragile thing in the world. “Hello.” Your voice shakes. “I’m going to be your Papa.”
You’re crying again, but with so much more than just fear. The nurse smiles. She takes our picture, tells you all the little things you worried about not knowing. I watch as you talk the baby to sleep. She’s already comfortable with you; the nurse is impressed.
You never had anything to fear, Haruka.
I wish the same could be said about me.
I’M ALWAYS A SLUT FOR THESE AND I’M SICK TODAY SO ENJOY ME ASKING FOR LIKE FIVE OF THEM. firstly, “things you said too quietly”
“Haruka.”
It’s like you can’t find the breath for more words. That’s kind of funny in a way that you wouldn’t find funny at all if I could point it out. And the look on you face isn’t funny. I can’t reach out to comfort you. But someone who wasn’t us would smile at the irony of you being unable to breathe while I’m here with my chest ripped open. I wish I could make you smile again, Michi, just one more time. I can’t find the way to make words either. It’s like I’m drowning; I feel water in my mouth, and though I know I’m not moving, something is dragging me down.
“Please no.”
I almost don’t hear you. I think the water’s in my ears, starting up into my eyes. Everything is muffled. I want to say something to you, but if I open my mouth now I’m sure I’ll go under. I always joked about drowning in you. Now that’s another thing we can’t laugh at.
You grab my hand. Your skin is warm and dry, like we’re not in water at all. I can feel your pulse at your wrist. It’s nice, Michi, but it’s too fast. It makes me feel like I should be scared. Maybe I should be, but I can’t focus on anything but you. But even you’re starting to blur.
You’re very close now. I feel you more than I see you. Your lips on my forehead, hair all around me. Your breath is warm, even underwater. Maybe you really are a mermaid.
“Haruka…” you whisper. I can’t hear the rest of what you say. Speak louder, Michi. The water is taking your words. Are you swimming me up to the surface, or is this goodbye?
PEARL/ROSE 22
22. things you said after it was over
After the first battle, I was ecstatic. “We won!” I yelled, leaping into your arms. All of us were weary and covered in battle dust, but you still smelled sweet beneath it all.
“Oh, my Pearl.” Your fingers stroked the back of my neck. “This is only the beginning.”
There wasn’t much to celebrate after that. The Homeworld gems kept coming, our friends kept shattering beyond even your ability to repair them. And you kept putting yourself in the middle of it, no matter what I said or did to try and keep you safe. You kept fighting and I kept seeing a thousand ways you could be hurt like Sapphire had lent me her Sight. All I could ever say after a battle was, “Please, next time, stay safe, stay away.”
Every time, you said, “I won’t hide from my own fight. I’ll be fine, sweet Pearl.”
I never believed you.
But then their ships cut through the sky like a thousand shooting stars, and the four of us left on the battlefield sank to our knees. “It’s done,” you said. “We can finally have peace.”
And I believed you. I believed you when you said it was going to be okay, that I was going to be okay. Everything we did was worth it, you said, we saved this planet and these people. We kept you safe, I never said. You already knew why I fought. I’d just curl into you chest and listen to whatever you thought would make me feel better. “I found moss today that bears the most beautiful flowers, my Pearl.” “Tomorrow, I want to take you to the beach. The waves are calming, when no one’s there. Maybe we could settle down by the sea side.” After a while, it did make me feel better. I felt whole, like I was never defective and never turned against my home.
But it wasn’t really over. They’re back now, Rose, it’s starting just like last time. And you aren’t here. We can win, we’ll do it for Steven. We won’t let Homeworld break him. But who’s going to be there for him after? For us, if we make it through? We only made it because of you, Rose.
I wish you could be here for him too.
Things you said that I wish you hadn’t
Okay I lied I’m posting this now since I can’t sleep.
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As soon as Mina drags us into their game of truth or dare, I know there’s going to be trouble. If it had been just the inners, maybe it would have been fine. Fun, even. But they are here. I try to make an excuse. You wave it off. I know they’d never break you, but I’m not that strong.
It’s alright for a few rounds, until Yaten gets that look in their eye. “Michiru. Truth or dare?”
You flip your hair, ready for the challenge. “Dare.”
I really wish you hadn’t said that.
Yaten smiles. “I dare you to kiss the most attractive person in the room who isn’t Haruka.”
“Will you be providing the mirror, or should I summon mine?”
I bite into my hand to keep from screaming. This isn’t going to end well. Seiya shifts forward in her seat. If you choose her, I swear I’ll break something.
“While your narcissism is certainly entertaining, I hardly think that would count.” Yaten puts their hand in their chin. “We’re waiting, Ms. Kaioh.”
“And I suppose I’m right to assume this is to be a full mouth kiss?”
Why did you ask? You could have gotten away with a peck on the cheek if you hadn’t.
“Yes.”
My heart pounds in my chest. Mako would be an alright choice, if it came down to it. Thought maybe I only think so because I trust her; she’s too genuine to take anything from it. Even if you really were attracted to her. Are you?
“Well, there’s one objectively right choice, isn’t there?” You stand up. Choose Mako, I plead in my head. Or Usagi, she’s innocent enough.
But you don’t walk to either of them.
Or Seiya.
Before anyone can process your choice, you’ve dipped Mina from her seat on the couch arm and kissed her. Mina’s eyes are wide even as you walk away.
“Goddess of love and beauty, you know,” you say as you sit down next to me. “The obvious choice.”
“Well,” Mina says, “that’s hard logic to argue with.”
Your eyes harden. I can see revenge forming in your mind. “So, Seiya, truth or dare?”
I groan and bury my face in a couch cushion.
send me a ship and one of these and i’ll write a mini fic
- things you said at 1 am
- things you said through your teeth
- things you said too quietly
- things you said over the phone
- things you didn’t say at all
- things you said under the stars and in the grass
- things you said while we were driving
- things you said when you were crying
- things you said when i was crying
- things you said that made me feel like shit
- things you said when you were drunk
- things you said when you thought i was asleep
- things you said at the kitchen table
- things you said after you kissed me
- things you said with too many miles between us
- things you said with no space between us
- things you said that i wish you hadnt
- things you said when you were scared
- things you said when we were the happiest we ever were
- things you said that i wasn’t meant to hear
- things you said when we were on top of the world
- things you said after it was over
- things you said [make your own]
inspired by this
*yells* MICHIRU KAIOH ISN’T A LESBIAN! SHE TALKED TO MAMORU ONCE!
*shoves through crowd* excuSE ME?? EXCUSE ME?? listen here, punk, Michiru is the most sapphic lesbian to ever gay her way through this miserable world, let me tell you.
(good one!)
If you lost me in a crowd, what “offensive” thing could you yell that’d be GUARANTEED to track me down?
Dating meme: Haruka or Michiru?
In the abstract, I’m drawn to Haruka more, but in real life I’d definitely go for Michiru. She’s so beautiful and I’m always drawn to artistic types. Aaand I really like watching people play the violin. 🙂
Haruka or Utena
Ahh that’s tough. I keep changing my answer on this.
I love both of them to pieces, but I think I’m going with Haruka. I see way too much of myself in Utena, we’d be alike in all the wrong ways. Plus myu!Haruka is at least like 30% of why I know I’m gay, sooooo 😛
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