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Ok this one is a lame au but the Outers show up in pgsm.

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THIS ISN’T LAME THIS IS WONDERFUL TERRITORY AND I WENT
TOTALLY OFF THE RAILS, THE ENDING IS DISAPPOINTING BUT CHRIST I WROTE WAY TOO
MUCH.

  • I’m going to come from the second season angle, with the
    special act never happening. Also, I think there’s no Chibs in the PGSM-verse,
    because of Sailor Luna and also working in a world without the security of
    Crystal Tokyo is interesting.
  • So that puts us with a Pluto who has not known friendship,
    who never fought or died for a sweet little girl. She becomes Setsuna and
    everything is new, she gets to be with people for the first time.
  • Also, she’s aged down a bit. Only a little older than our
    main cast. She is so eager to befriend them and she doesn’t know how. And she
    knows she is supposed to be there to warn them, but she wants so badly to be
    loved by them that she frets over her approach and dreads their impression of
    her being such a bad omen.
  • Minako notices her, and confronts her, thinking she might be
    a fan going to far, showing up places they hang out and always looking a little
    too long. Setsuna transforms to assure her that’s not the case. She explains
    that there may be a time when additional soldiers are needed to destroy bigger
    threats.
  • She also asks that Minako keep her a secret from the others.
  • Minako agrees, but she knows what it’s like to take on the
    burden of duty and memory alone, so she invites Setsuna along to hang out with
    them.
  • (And as monster attacks start cropping up again, she makes
    sure Setsuna is able to sneak away quietly instead of transforming. There’s not
    yet anything they can’t handle on their own yet anyway.)
  • There’s a nice little subplot of Rei getting jealous of this
    new, beautiful older girl Minako is suddenly chummy with.
  • She swears she’s not jealous, she explains to Ami one night,
    it’s just that she used to be the one person Minako connected to, and now
    Setsuna’s new and shiny and she feels forgetten.
  • That’s jealousy, Ami says (she knows the feeling all too
    well), but what did you say about premonitions of doom?
  • Rei says it’s probably nothing. Ami takes note while Rei is
    focused on her definitely-not-jealousy.
  • Usagi, meanwhile, is causing Mamoru some
    definitely-not-jealousy as she spends time with a handsome stranger she met in
    a candy shop.
  • He of course doesn’t SAY anything, of course, but Usagi sees
    something is wrong and mopes around the karaoke bar trying to figure it out.
  • Mako has NO PATIENCE for Mamoru’s shit, so she barges over
    to his place to find out what’s wrong. He caves and she’s just like YOU’RE
    STUPID USAGI LOVES YOU. Also, I think Haruka is about as threatening to you as
    a teddy bear, she cries over every animal video Usagi shows her.
  • Oh, is all Mamoru can say, and then he pulls his head out of
    his ass.
  • We then get just fun scenes of the girls (including
    Setsuna!) hanging out with Haruka, trying on sunglasses, complaining about
    school, all the usual stuff. She and Mako play basketball. A good time is had
    by all.
  • Meanwhile, tho, the viewers get insight into the Death
    Buster’s plans. Tomoe and Kaolintie (the baddies are streamlined a bit) hatch
    daimons from various objects. They whisper about building up to hatching the
    most powerful daimon of all.
  • The daimons get more and more powerful, the girls fight more
    and more. One day they get attacked while hanging out, and in order to protect
    Haruka, Setsuna is forced to reveal herself. And when she transforms, she
    recognizes the hidden power of Uranus in Haruka.
  • The girls are surprised in the aftermath, but not shocked.
    Usagi is elated that both her new friends are senshi. She offers her hand to
    Haruka, eager to see her transform for the first time…
  • And is blown away by a blast of power.
  • “That girl will not become a senshi,” says a voice from the shadows.
    “You will not lead her down this path.”
  • The audience sees a shot of green hair, a glint of a mirror.
  • “We need her to awaken the messiah, should the need arise.”
    Setsuna says. She touches the garnet orb on her staff.
  • “Then the need shall not arise,” says the mysterious
    soldier. “If she is with you, she is protected, is she not?”
  • Haruka wants to join the fight, but something holds her
    back. And when she asks, later, Minako is honest. Duty is hard. Duty is
    painful. Whoever the mysterious soldier is, she is not wrong. Whatever reasons
    she has for protecting Haruka may be valid.
  • Rei, meanwhile, is not content to be left wondering. She
    goes to her fires with a question, and they give her an answer. The next day
    she tracks down the young heiress Michiru Kaioh.
  • “I know who you are,” she says, but Michiru does not falter.
    “And I know who you are, Mars. I know what you have seen. Pluto is wrong. When
    we three awaken we bring destruction. I will not let that girl face that.”
  • “What is she to you?”
  • Michiru freezes. “Everything. But I am nothing to her.” And
    she takes her leave.
  • There’s several episodes of Haruka agonizing and the girls
    fighting and Neptune watching from the shadows and Rei being weird about
    Setsuna and Minako and trying to decide if she’s relieved or more threatened by
    the fact that she’s a soldier.
  • And finally one episode ends with a scared little girl looking
    into Tomoe’s laboratory, with more ominous talk of The Most Powerful Daimon.
  • We follow this little girl, Hotaru, next episode, see her go
    to school and be picked on for being sickly, see her avoid going home. She
    meets Haruka, who asks if she’s lost. She says no, but when Haruka asks if she’d
    like to be walked home because it’s getting dark, she nods and takes her hand.
  • Of course, a powerful daimon attacks them.
  • Neptune appears seemingly out of nowhere to fight it. “Run,”
    she spits, and Haruka picks up Hotaru and tries but a second daimon appears. “Forget
    the girl and run!”
  • Haruka, of course, cannot, and if she cannot run, she must
    fight.
  • The power explodes out of her and she transforms. Michiru
    watches in despair.
  • Uranus immediately kills the monster she faces with her
    sword, and turns to make sure Hotaru is okay.
  • But Hotaru’s glowing purple, and in a voice not her own she
    demands the third. Where is it? She needs the third.
  • Michiru drops her transformation, and yells at Haruka to do
    the same. Hotaru returns to normal with no memory of what happened.
  • “The three of us must never be transformed in the same
    place,” Michiru says quietly. “Lest the messiah of silence awaken.”
  • “You don’t have to be alone though,”Haruka says. (She
    carries Hotaru, who has fallen asleep, on her back.
  • Michiru insists it’s too risky. She would rather Haruka stay
    safe, but Haruka smiles and says she’s in this now. She asks why Michiru cares
    so much, and she avoids the question.
  • All the senshi, minus Michiru, have a meeting in the karaoke
    parlor. Rei states what she knows, and so does Haruka. The incident with Hotaru
    worries Pluto. She explains that the three of them are supposed to call forth
    the holy grail, which empowers Serenity.
  • Usagi quietly says that every power that can do good can do
    bad just as easily.
  • It silences them all for a long moment. Then Haruka suggests
    that Hotaru seems troubled, and maybe the best option would be to find out more
    about what might be going on.
  • They form a plan. Ami signs up to be a tutor at Hotaru’s
    elementary school. She meets Hotaru, but learns nothing. Hotaru is troubled by
    bullying, that is clear, but there’s something deeper Ami can see but can’t
    define.
  • Then, without notice because she’s not one to be behind the
    scenes, MINAKO AINO makes a surprise visit to the elementary school! All of the
    kids go nuts, asking for autographs and songs, but Hotaru hangs back. Ami takes
    her chance and asks Hotaru what’s wrong. She’s been bullied too, she assures
    her, and she won’t tell anyone anything Hotaru says.
  • Hotaru is painfully ready to trust people. She tells Ami her
    mother died, but now her father has brought home a woman and the woman won’t
    leave. Ami nods, thinking it’s a stepmother situation, but then Hotaru whispers
    that they spend all their time in the basement laboratory, saying things that
    scare her, and sometimes she wakes up at night sure someone has been in her
    room.
  • There’s whispers in her dreams, words she doesn’t understand.
    Daimons. Does Ami know what a daimon is?
  • Ami lies and says no. As soon as she can, she takes out her
    phone and makes a call.
  • Haruka, luckily, knows where Hotaru’s house is from walking
    her home. The two of them expect to do a stealth attack (figuring there is no
    time to gether the others), but Kaolinite knows Hotaru has talked. She meets
    them at the door and announces they are too late.
  • She turns and shoves Hotaru forward, announcing the most
    powerful daimon is complete.
  • The wind rises around Hotaru. Haruka whispers that this isn’t
    how she went strange before.
  • Michiru runs past everyone, untransformed. As she is about
    to throw herself on Hotaru, Haruka grabs her arm. “What are you doing?”
  • “Killing the girl will save us all.”
  • “How can you say that? She’s a child.”
  • The fight is cut short by Hotaru hatching into Mistress
    Nine.
  • The being that was once the little girl Hotaru looks at her
    hands, shrieking with laughter at the joy of being alive. The sky darkens above
    her. She smiles before lashing out.
  • Michiru shields Haruka from the blow, looking so small in
    comparision to tall, transformed Uranus.
  • Mistress Nine knocks back Mercury, declaring them not worth
    the fight. She calls for Tomoe and Kaolinite, declaring that they must protect
    her, they’ve brought her into a body still to frail to handle her power. She
    cannot yet call Pharoh 90.
  • And then Hotaru collapses, a girl once again. Tomoe and
    Kaolinite take her up and disappear.
  • There’s a few quieter episodes. Haruka visits Michiru in the
    hospital, and Michiru confesses everything. How her visions had led her to
    Haruka, and while she’d already planned on stopping her from awakening, the
    more she watched, the more she wanted to protect Haruka’s smile. It wouldn’t be
    fair if Haruka had to face a soldier’s life. She never wanted Haruka to face
    down killing a little girl for the sake of the world.
  • Once she’s out, everyone comes together. Setsuna somberly
    announces her thoughts—based on what Haruka saw, Hotaru bears the soul of
    Saturn, the soldier of destruction. Michiru agrees, stating the extent of her
    visions. She’s seen that they are between a rock and a hard place—destruction by
    Saturn or destruction by Pharoh 90.
  • Setsuna sees things differently. Saturn’s power razes the earth
    as a fire might raze a crop, ensuring the soil is renewed so that it can grow
    back stronger. Destruction by the likes of Pharoh 90 is a plague, poisoning the
    earth so that nothing shall rise up in its wake.
  • They should awaken Saturn to force out Mistress Nine.
  • Minako agrees. Rei very emphatically does not. They have
    fought for their lives. This life. She’s not prepared to sacrifice it. She and
    Minako fall into old patterns of subordination and accusations of being bad
    soldiers.
  • Usagi stops them. They will awaken Saturn. But she will stop
    the destruction. She will not hear that it’s not how it works.
  • They draw out Mistress Nine once more, and this time she is successful
    in calling to her master. Pharoh 90 appears in the sky, slowly descending to
    consume the earth.
  • The soldiers worry they are too late, but they follow the
    plan.
  • The Outers all transform, and Mistress Nine begins to morph.
    There is a war inside Hotaru’s body, and Saturn wins.
  • She raises her glaive to reset, but Princess Sailor Moon
    steps up, blocking the glaive with her sword.
  • “I will not allow destruction of things I love.”
  • “You are too late. I will birth this world anew. I am
    destruction incarnate.”
  • “So was I, once.” Usagi fades into her regular Sailor Moon
    form. The Holy Grail appears before her, and she takes it. “We don’t have to be
    the things we were made for.” The grail opens and light washes over her. She
    has become Super Sailor Moon. “I destroyed my kingdom in pain, and I was wrong.”
  • “I am not motivated by pain, only duty.”
  • “A very good friend of mine felt the same, once. But she
    found out duty isn’t all there is.”
  • “There’s nothing else for me!” Saturn yells, sounding much
    more like Hotaru. “This is something I can do, this is the only thing that’s
    right!”
  • “No, we can do something else, together.” Usagi holds out her
    hand, and Hotaru takes it, just as she took Haruka’s hand before. Together they
    face Pharoh 90, the power of Super Sailor Moon lifting them up to meet him. They
    disappear to fight him from the inside.
  • Usagi emerges, the holy grail cracked in two at her feet,
    and Hotaru, once again an ordinary little girl, in her arms.

I’m watching the old myus and it gives me an appreciation for the starlights. The anime didn’t give them that much charisma at all. Also it’s pretty fun how myus fuck with canon I wish we’d see more of that.

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Ahhh I love the old myus so much for how much fun they have and how little they worried about sticking too closely to canon.

And I feel like the Starlights work best in musicals, both because the musicals aren’t afraid to have fun with them (and poke fun at them), and because I think the musicals have the best balance of not padding out things without being too streamlined. There’s room for distrust and conflict without it completely steamrolling their good traits and their tragedy. I also, personally, think Kakyuu was handled better in Eien Densetsu than in anything else, and it’s amazing how much more that sells the Starlights for me. (And I say that having liked them in the anime too. I think I buy into things the narrative wants me to pretty easily, and the things I already liked were just done better in the myus.)

I hope if the new myus continue, they get into some of the same canon-irreverent territory the old ones lived in. I’d love to see more original stories, or just more twists on the ones we have. I mean, even if it was just more villain- shuffling like in ED and SDK I’d love to see it.

I know this is super late, but your AU was EVERYTHING this day needed. Usually, it’s Haruka trying so hard to make the connection, so it was really interesting to see Michiru try a hand at it. Also, Haruka with a southern accent was actually mind-blowing.

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Oh thank you anon you’re so sweet! I’m always a little self conscious about America AU’s like this, but I love all the little things that open up just from familiarity. Thank you so much for reading and commenting! ❤ ❤

AU where Beryl is the only threat ever. NO one but Usagi and the Inners are ever awakened.

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  • There is no Crystal Tokyo
  • CT is built on the back of tragedy and danger, in peace it can never come to be
  • Chibiusa is born in the 21st century, an ordinary child, a happy child with parents who treat her as their whole world
  • The Inners live relatively happy lives in simple peace, thought they’re never truly free. The threat that something else could come never goes away.
  • Haruka moves through life like a tornado, unable to calm the wind inside her. She can never shake the feeling she’s forgotten something, there’s a nagging at the back of her mind to do something, to be ready, to never sleep lest the moment comes
  • Michiru has always been a raging sea beneath a placid surface, she cannot distinguish the inexplicable emptiness inside her from the emptiness her poised life brings
  • She has dreams sometimes– she does not know enough to call them visions– of a past life spent fighting, and of fights that could come but never do
  • (Not awakening is different than not reincarnating, and having a part of you forever asleep is a cruel fate)
  • They never find each other, the poised socialite and the mechanic that blows through jobs and barely gets by. They went to the same school, once upon a time, but Michiru could never approach someone like Haruka.
  • Years before Beryl even came on the scene, a little girl died in a fire. No entities came to offer her father a deal for her life.
  • Pluto sits at her door. No sad child comes to befriend her. She has to believe it’s better this way. She’s found a peaceful timeline. It’s the best option. It has to be.

AU where Artemis and Luna never awaken. There are no guides here.

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  • Minako still becomes a soldier first. One monster encounter, and Venus opens up the memory well. She will not watch her princess die again.
  • She takes up the mission of finding her fellow soldiers– Mars first, because if there’s going to be just two, they’re a matched pair. Then Ami, to run intel, and then Mako
  • There is no Sailor Moon in this version, at least not right away, Minako’s goal is to keep the princess from awakening. That, in her view, is the happy ending– an ordinary life, free from the burdens of the past
  • When Tuxedo Mask shows up, she has two conflicting instincts:
    1. The princess wished for a second chance at a happy life with him
    2. He’ll lead to the princess’s destruction, just like last time
  • She ultimately tries to cut a deal with Beryl– her beloved prince for peace
  • Beryl laughs, because it was never just about the prince
  • Serenity awakens, not because Endymion is struck down, but because Venus is
  • Usagi wakes screaming, her pajamas replaced by a flowing white dress, mourning a friend she didn’t even get to meet in this life
  • (She is connected to her soldiers by design, Queen Serenity needed her
    daughter to know when her protectors failed, when she need to run) 
  • The fight is the same, but also different– Usagi comes to Beryl without the bonds of this life’s friendship, but she demands the chance for them, her soldiers fall one by one but she will not let them stay down, she will not let Beryl win, she will get the chance she wants and they will all live on togetherr
  • After, when everyone is back, Minako has to look Usagi in the eyes and admit all her choices. There is anger, and sadness, but most of all forgiveness, because they still have an opportunity now, they can go forward together

Hello, I just wanted to say how I can empathize with feeling nervous about beginning therapy. I also procrastinated about it for a long time, and I wasn’t sure if I would benefit from it at first. But I’m so glad I took that step now, therapy is a great tool to have! I wish you well!

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Thanks anon! I’m finding the process of looking for a therapist frustrating, even tho I know I just started. There’s all sorts of discrepancies between what my insurance website says and what people’s profiles say, so if I manage to find someone I like who’s taking new patients, I worry they won’t take my insurance. But so far I just haven’t found anyone taking new patients (my insurance website is also unreliable on that front). Something will come through eventually, tho. Thank you for your support!

Do u have any tips for coming out?

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I am probably the worst at coming out, honestly. I mostly occupy super safe spaces (I am among the luckiest in the world, I know, because while my orientation is not always well received, I have never been in danger for it and I’ve gotten more acceptance than anything else), but coming out to people still terrifies me sometimes. 

Really the advice I have is that coming out is about you. People LOVE to make it about them, but your safety and comfort is what matters. It’s easy to feel guilty about not telling people– they may feel like you didn’t trust them if you wait to tell them, or like you lied, or any number of things– but mostly people will come to understand that coming out has to do with so much more than your relationship with them. I made quite a few people upset when I came out on Facebook, because I didn’t tell them directly (I… told my father by telling him I came out on Facebook), but it was what I needed to do, it was the way that felt safe and comfortable for me. The people I did tell one on one, I tended to just jump to saying I had a crush on a girl, and leaving it at that (I don’t really recommend that, I’m pretty sure the reason my high school best friend and I fell out of touch is I just dropped “yeah the person I like is a girl” on her and gave her no room to react). 

It’s… hard. I wish I could give tips for coming out to family especially, but my experience was weird. (Aside from my ridiculous way of telling my father, when I told my mom and sister (separately) that I probably liked girls, they didn’t really take me seriously UNTIL I went public with it). And I came out when I was already living away from home– I got to avoid a lot of the fallout from it. A lot of people don’t have that luxury. I know my oldest friend didn’t, he started coming out when he was 15/16, and his parents took it pretty badly (even four  years later, they didn’t go to his wedding). They’re starting to come around now, and he got through it, but it was hard (sadly at that point in our lives we lived in different states, so I don’t have a lot of information on how he did it).

It’s different for everyone, and while “do what feels right” is the worst and most vague advice in the world, it’s what I have. And ALWAYS remember you have the right to not come out to people, you’re not lying or hiding or cowardly or anything if you chose not to tell someone. It’s great an freeing if you can get there, but it’s okay to not be there yet. And it’s okay to never get there in some instances (I, for example, never plan on letting one of my grandfathers know I’m gay unless I get into a super serious relationship. I love him, but I don’t know that our relationship would withstand me coming out.) And know that even people who seem super confident in who they are can struggle with this too, and you’re never, ever alone.