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Michiru tried being up front, and now she’s back to what she knows. She tests the waters and tries to push Haruka to say what she wants. Haruka’s reaction is still  everything to her– she wants her to say she likes girls, that she wants to take a girl driving, that she wants to take Michiru– but now she has all the deniability in the world.

Haruka, naturally, is too oblivious to even notice the bait

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My theory with the yacht performance is Michiru expressly invited Haruka/ sent her a ticket. (Haruka goes because she doesn’t REALLY want to have this end with one interaction.)

I imagine Michiru also offers to buy/rent Haruka appropriate attire.

Naturally this offends Haruka to her core. She scrounges up all the money she can, combs through every thrift store, and is just tall enough she can find something relatively nice and cheap that fits her alright.

Except.

RUFFLES.

But she’s so proud, she shows up in a suit she owns and she can show Michiru she doesn’t need her, she’s just fine on her own. That’s all she really needs from the outfit anyway.

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This  k i l l s  me because ostensibly, Haruka is afraid because this girl has been in her dreams about the literal end of the world. But with how the rest of the episode plays out, I don’t think it’s actually what she’s scared of. I think Haruka WANTS to save the world. She aches for goodnesss. She aches to be able to have that one good thing she sees in herself. (How tragic that when she gets it it twists into just another reason to hate herself for a while.)

She’s afraid of Michiru, not Neptune. I think she knows that whatever happens, this girl is going to change her world. I don’t believe in knowing right off when you’ve found ~the one~, but I think sometimes you really do feel when someone’s going to have an impact on you. And that can be scary, especially when you’re seeped in self-hatred and can’t conceive of someone loving you.

And Michiru is already vulnerable with Haruka, she’s letting herself be open for pain and rejection because she’s already so entranced. What choice does she have but to be brave? To chose her desires for once in her life, rather than live fitfully with regret.

THEY’RE BOTH TERRIFIED. THEY’RE BOTH GONNA LOOK BACK ON THIS MOMENT AND WONDER HOW THEY EVER GOT TO HAPPINESS FROM HERE.

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What interests me here is I am 5000% sure Michiru didn’t
have dreams of Uranus telling her to join the fight. (Unless my memory is
wrong, I think there’s dialogue later in which Michiru implies she was fighting
for a bit before realizing Haruka was her partner in the mission and I view
that as implying this as well.) I think Michiru’s dreams show her things, but
she’s informing herself, so to speak. It’s her powers showing her what’s
coming, not a separate entity or even ~destiny~.  She sees the fights and destruction on the
horizon, and when the time comes she calls to Neptune’s power and it answers. She
doesn’t exactly know it’s there, but her dreams give her an idea and intuition
does the rest.

So what, exactly, causes Haruka’s dreams? She’s no seer.
While I think she has instincts that push her to fight, it’s different than
intuition that might manifest into dreams. I think a likely explanation is that
Michiru/Neptune is projecting into Haruka’s sleeping mind. Sharing part of her vision,
and giving Haruka instruction. It’s not conscious on Michiru’s part, she’s desperate,
lonely, in the night when her guard is down she can’t help but reach out
and her powers take her further than she’d ever expect.

(Does Michiru remember being in Haruka’s dream? Maybe,
though I don’t know that she’d feel the difference from a vision. Could Michiru
learn to do this consciously if she did so choose? Definitely)