My wife doesn’t really understand what the new beta Pokemon are or where they came from, but they love beta Pichu and Igglybuff.
Author: sittingoverheredreaming
I get very frustrated about job stuff, and in particular I get frustrated about the combined job stuff of me and my wife. We’re at very different stages with very different attitudes, and my wife’s health situation makes it hard to navigate.
I’ve gotten to a place where day to day, I’m handling my job really well. I’ve started to kind of make friends and walking everyday before work has gotten me into a routine that really, really works for my mood and general well being. My productivity has shot up from it too, I’m writing more than I have for a while.
It makes it tempting to stay with my job, but there’s a lot of company stuff that has me worried. I don’t know that they’ll hire me on after my temp assignment is up at the end of June, or if (ideally) they’ll extend it again. If I’m hired on, I have to sign a year-long contract, and it makes me nervous to not be able to leave. There’s also a lot of unease in the company, it looses and wins contracts sometimes unexpectedly and so employment is always in flux, and that’s aside from the fact that they’re trying to develop programs to eliminate the jobs at my level (they are very, very bad at it). And the culture around overtime is not for me, I’m in a place of privilege where I want to work 40 hours and then enjoy what I’ve worked for. ALSO MY SHIFT SUCKS AND I KNOW THEY WON’T LET ME CHANGE IT. (I get out of work at 7pm, which is when most every show/class/activity/etc I ever want to do starts, except for the ones that start at 6:30).
But I’m not finding anything else, I keep getting so far with other positions and then hitting a wall, whether it’s that the position was misadvertised and is part time, or they contact me and when I follow up I never hear from them again, or because I’m not available the very next day, which is the only time they will do any interviews (that one is a longer story that made me want to scream). (I got one rejection that made me happy, I applied at a library and they MAILED me a hand-signed note, it was so quaint I’d absolutely apply there again.)
I’ve thought about going back to school, probably for teaching (IMAGINE ME AS A QUIRKY HIGH SCHOOL ENGLISH TEACHER) or for tech (mostly because dear god I know more than half the IT team at work), but it would be so hard to work out, because I can’t stop working full time. And I think I would have a hard time with the work/school/life balance, mostly in the Life area. Not to mention costs and trying to get scholarships and everything.
So, I don’t know, i guess this is a long winded way to say I DON’T KNOW WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN WITH MY WORK LIFE. I know I’m largely in a good situation, but, it’s hard. IDK.
Part three of HaruMichi BatB! See the masterpost for previous installments. And as always, comments are the best!
The sun was Haruka’s only hint at the time. The room she’d been given had two small windows, facing south, just large enough to stick her head out of. They bore heavy red velvet curtains that cast her into eternal night when closed. Open, though… she managed to pin one side to the wall with an understuffed armchair that had been in the corner.
It was morning, now. The sunlight glittered on the dew-wet tree tops. Haruka tried to see her truck through the leaves, but she could not even find the road. It wouldn’t matter if she could find her way to it, though. There was nothing but trees as far as she could see, and without gas she did not trust she’d make it back to civilization.
“It’s a bit too small if you’re trying to escape.”
HaruMichi Beauty and the Beast Masterpost
When Haruka’s truck breaks down in the middle of nowhere, she comes upon a mansion and intends to ask for help. What she finds inside is something she could never expect.
Final word count: ~23K
Read on AO3, or use the links below. Please comment if you enjoy it, and if you really enjoy it, consider buying me a coffee.
Part one In which Haruka gets lost
Part two Michiru, the monster
Part three In which Haruka decides to try
Part four The investigation begins (Minako)
Part five Michiru, the garden and the mirror
Part six In which Haruka makes mistakes and discoveries
Part seven The witch’s house (Minako)
Part eight Michiru, truth and fear
Part nine Family History (Minako)
Part Ten In Which Haruka reaches out
Part Eleven Michiru, blooms
Part Twelve In which Haruka plans a ball
Part Thirteen Michiru, a dance
Part Fourteen Rescue Mission (Minako)
Part Fifteen Michiru, two shots
Part Sixteen In Which Haruka Runs into the Fire
Part Seventeen Michiru, broken
Part Eighteen In Which Our Story Finds Its End
Part three of HaruMichi BatB! See the masterpost for previous installments. And as always, comments are the best!
The sun was Haruka’s only hint at the time. The room she’d been given had two small windows, facing south, just large enough to stick her head out of. They bore heavy red velvet curtains that cast her into eternal night when closed. Open, though… she managed to pin one side to the wall with an understuffed armchair that had been in the corner.
It was morning, now. The sunlight glittered on the dew-wet tree tops. Haruka tried to see her truck through the leaves, but she could not even find the road. It wouldn’t matter if she could find her way to it, though. There was nothing but trees as far as she could see, and without gas she did not trust she’d make it back to civilization.
“It’s a bit too small if you’re trying to escape.”
Haruka jumped, banging her head on the top of the window. She bit her lip to keep from swearing. Behind her was… at first she saw nothing, but then it moved. A little ripple in the light, the faintest shadow of a human form… two human forms. The ghosts the mon- the ghosts Michiru had mentioned.
“Oh dear!” the shorter one said, scurrying to Haruka’s side, arms posed like she held up voluminous unseen skirts. “We didn’t mean to startle you! Are you alright?”
“Yeah, just a little bump.”
The little ghost stretched to reach Haruka’s head. Her fingers ruffled through her hair like a winter breeze. Haruka shivered, but the pain receded.
“I’m Usagi.” The ghost dipped into something like a curtsy. “And this is Makoto. Do you by chance know my daughter?”
The ghost did not have any discernible facial features, but Haruka could feel the eagerness radiate from her. She felt a tug of deep sadness. If the mansion was as old as it seemed, the ghost’s daughter was probably long gone.
“I’m not from around here, sorry.”
“That’s a pity, my daughter has probably grown into a wonderful lady you’d be lucky to know. Or…” the ghost spun excitedly. “It’s a good thing, because if my daughter is your age, you’d surely fall in love with her instead of–”
“Usagi.”
The small ghost made herself smaller. “Sorry.”
Makoto came forward, gliding rather than walking. “Our Lady Michiru believed you may need company.”
“Oh, no, I’m alright, you guys don’t need to—“
“But we want to!” Usagi butted in again. “We haven’t had a visitor in… in…” She froze, fading in and out of full color and clarity. She was round and blonde, with blue eyes wide in horror. “It’s been…” She rose a transparent hand to her opaque face. “We are…”
Makoto flashed into clarity and put a solid hand on Usagi’s shoulder. They both calmed back to shadows.
“Well,” Usagi said, as though nothing had happened, “it’s been several years, at least. So we could use the company as much as you could!”
Haruka forced a smile. “Alright then.” If she stayed here, would she face the same fate? Had the creature trapped these two women years ago, and now that they had died or done whatever had put them in this limbo, she’d decided she needed another?
“Do not be afraid,” Makoto said gently, as though sensing Haruka’s thoughts. “We are Michiru’s handmaidens, while she is trapped here so are we.” She turned to the door. “Would you allow us to give you a tour?”
“Um, sure.”
They took her through various sitting rooms, the kitchen, a library and even a wine cellar. Usagi advised her on the many nooks and crannies where you might— not that she had, that would be irresponsible as a lady’s maid, but still, you might— sneak a suitor in to have a moment alone. Makoto was more practical, she told Haruka where the entrance to the walled gardens was, if she would like to go outside, and all the staircases that led to the floor her bedroom was on.
They came upon a staircase that neither of them said a word about. Haruka stopped. “Is that where she told me not to go?”
Both ghosts froze. “Yes,” Makoto said. “And you’d best keep to that.”
“Why?”
“Haruka! Michiru is a lady.” Haruka had the keen sense that Usagi had her hands on her hips. “She can’t have someone like you in her chambers. It would be improper.”
Makoto hurried them both along. Haruka wondered if that was the whole story, or if it was true at all.
“What else can you tell me about her?”
“Generally,” Makoto said sternly, “if you want to know about someone, you should ask them directly.”
“Well, yeah, but…”
She softened. “You’re afraid.”
“No!” Haruka’s stubbornness got the better of her. “I would never, I just—“
“She was made to be frightening,” Usagi said quietly. “I was scared for a while, too.” Her shadow shrunk down smaller than ever. “It hurts our Lady. She could always be scary, but she got to choose when.”
“She was not nice, but nor was she cruel. Her family took care of the town, and employed many of its people, and she had no need to extend more kindness than that.”
“What happened, then?”
“Oh Haruka,” Usagi said. “You can’t expect us to spill all her secrets for her.”
Haruka could not help but smile a little. “I’m beginning to think you’re plotting something.”
“It would do Michiru good to have company aside from us.” Makoto sighed. “She does not like to admit to loneliness, but it’s clear she’s suffering.”
Part of Haruka wanted to shout that she, too, would suffer when kept as a prisoner, especially with something that, while they spoke highly of her, was still clearly a monster, but she thought better of it. “She did seem… sad, last night.”
Usagi nodded her shadowy head. “She wanted so badly to impress you!”
That, perhaps more than anything else, rang true to Haruka. The creature had tried so had to grasp the silverware, and Haruka had pretended not to see but all she could wonder was why she did not simply eat with her claws, if it was what she was accustomed to. She felt bad, now, for how she’d reacted. Michiru had been, it seemed, a person. Still was, probably, despite how she looked. Haruka’s cheeks flushed with shame. She knew what it was like, to be treated as less than you were.
She thought for a long moment. “Could the two of you convince her to come to dinner again?”
“We can try.”
“And the kitchens will make anything I want? Even if it’s not a food that you guys would know?”
“It should, yes.”
“Haruka, are you plotting too?”
She laughed. “I think I just might be.”
****
Haruka made her way to the dining room that evening and was pleased to find exactly what she’d wanted. The table bore a large plate of hamburgers and a practical troph of fries. She deeply wished she could send a pic of it to Mina, it was a party dream come true.
She took a seat towards the middle, so that wherever Michiru sat there would not be so much distance between them.
The shadows from the windows grew longer. The food stayed magically warm, but Haruka still worried. Her misgivings about trying to befriend a monster, her captor, began to rise in her stomach again.
There was a rustle outside the door. Haruka caught a glimpse of a scaly tail in the crack it was open. Michiru was pacing outside. Haruka surprised herself by thinking there was something almost endearing in it.
“Please come in,” she said as steadily as she could.
Michiru came to the door, half hiding behind it. “What is this?”
“They’re hamburgers.” Haruka took one. “They’re good. You eat them like this.” She rose it to her mouth and took a bite.
“If all you seek is to poke fun—“
“No, no! I like them.” She took some fries, hoping to drive the point home. “I thought you might too.”
Michiru hesitated, but then slowly approached the table. She took a seat again at the end of the table and took a burger as gingerly as she might handle porcelain. Her claws strained the bun but did not pierce it.
She looked at it with suspicion, then glanced to Haruka. “What is the year?”
Haruka swallowed her bite quickly. “2018.”
“Ah.” She turned back to the food. “And people… eat with their hands now?”
“Sometimes, yeah. For burgers and pizza, and stuff. We don’t eat steak or whatever by picking it up like this.”
“Oh.” She looked at the meat. “Is this not a steak?”
“It’s beef, yeah, but if there’s bread like this, we use our hands.”
“Like with hors de’ouvers.”
“Sure.”
Haruka watched, hopefully not in ant way that was weird, as Michiru chanced a bite. Her gaunt face twisted the moment it was in her mouth. “Oh dear, it’s quite… well, I should hope I’m not being rude, but it’s absolutely disgusting.”
Haruka laughed. “Yeah, we probably have way worse taste than people did in your day.”
“I would say so.”
They made eye contact, smiling at each other for the first time.
“We’ll try something else tomorrow, I’ll try and figure out—“
“Tomorrow?”
“Well, yeah, you said it was proper to have dinner together every day. Or do you mean you want something else now?”
“Oh no, you don’t need to worry on my behalf.” She looked down at her plate, limp hair falling over her shoulder. For a moment, Haruka could see how the motion would look on a person, on a woman who might be called beautiful. “You have been very kind to me, and I have not repaid you as such.”
“You don’t gotta…”
“Do you wish to leave?”
Haruka shut her mouth, suspicious of a trick.
“I can’t keep you here, I know. I acted selfishly, and I want you to go freely.”
“Well, I can’t get far without gas for my truck, and I know you can’t give me any.”
“I apologize.”
“Don’t worry about it. Can we make a deal?” Michiru nodded. “My roommate will come looking for me. Can I stay here until she finds me? She’s tenacious, she’ll make it eventually.”
“That sounds fair.”
“And until then, we can always have dinner together. And maybe…” Haruka wracked her brains for a good gesture of faith. “Makoto told me about the gardens, but didn’t take me. Maybe tomorrow you could show me around?”
Michiru pushed her burger around her plate, a small smile breaking across her face. “I would like that, Haruka.”
Haruka stopped just short of saying “It’s a date.” Life had gotten very strange very fast.
Last night I had a dream where I found a bootleg Sailor Moon sticker set at Michaels, and it had a story written in Japanese (I could understand in the dream, probably couldn’t in real life) that was WILDLY wrong, it was all about how the four Sailor Soldiers were trying to awaken the fifth, Sailor Mars, and Venus just wanted to shoot her with a Crescent Beam to do it. Great stuff. I had a friend in the dream who found it appropriately hilarious.
But then some weeb white dude comes up behind us and starts mainsplaining the sticker set to me, while standing waaaay to close to me and my friend.
So I was like “Why are you here.”
And he self-importantly says that since we don’t speak Japanese, we need him.
So i told, him, in Japanese, that I speak Japanese.
He got super uncomfortable and scurried the fuck away, but while he was still in earshot I managed to loudly say “I hate men” to my friend in Japanese, and then he fucking ran.
I wish all mansplaining situations ended so well
My wife convinced me in getting a new computer and I’m so excited to have something that’s reasonably responsive and can also run programs I want to use!!!!!
I CAN ACTUALLY OPEN THINGS FROM MY GOOGLE DRIVE IT’S BEAUTIFUL
Also damn, apparently I last used chrome in 2016, my bookmarks are all filled with nostalgia.
ANYWAY IT’S AMAZING TO HAVE A COMPUTER THAT DOESN’T HAVE TROUBLE WITH EVERYTHING I DO.
Why is it that every femme I’ve ever interacted with is lovely, protective of all the butches in their lives, and all around amazing, but nearly every article/think-piece/whatever that’s focused on femmes is always butch-phobic trash???
My wife convinced me in getting a new computer and I’m so excited to have something that’s reasonably responsive and can also run programs I want to use!!!!!
Quick light HaruMichi fluff piece, 700 words
———————————-Michiru’s mother had always been a hard woman, and over the years Michiru had watched that stiffness become literal. The slow progression of stony maintenance, chiseling away each flaw as it manifested so that she might become a statue of the woman Michiru saw in her parent’s wedding photos. When she had last seen her mother, she could not raise her eyebrows again yet, and she asked if Michiru had considered starting ‘getting work.’
She’d been appalled at the suggestion, she’d always promised herself she would be different from her parents in so many ways, bult as she leaned into the mirror now…
Michiru had thought it would happen so much later. But the lines around her eyes extended like a dozen little liner wings, and creases on her forehead would not dissipate no matter how she relaxed the muscles beneath them. The bones of her shoulders, elbows, knees, the lines of her neck, they had all grown more pronounced, seemingly overnight.
She opened her phone to look through pictures. When had it began? Wasn’t she still so young? Her mother hadn’t… but how was she to know when things began for her mother? She was nearing sixty, and Michiru had never seen as much as a gray hair appear unchecked. Perhaps she had the right of it. It was the only way, surely, turn to stone to bear the weight of age. Michiru would have to make some calls, and then—
“Michi?”
She straightened, smoothed her dress, fixed her hair. “Yes?”
“You’re taking awhile, the show…”
“Oh, yes.” Michiru looked in the mirror again. She had not even begun her makeup, and she needed it now more than ever. “Perhaps you could go ahead of me, I’m going a bit slow today.”
“I’m not going without you.” Haruka cracked the bathroom door. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing’s wrong, love.” She grabbed her foundation and unscrewed the cap in a hurry. “I merely got distracted.”
“Michiru.” She opened the door further and stepped inside. “I know you. You can talk to me.”
It wasn’t fair—Haruka was every bit as handsome as the day they’d met, while she… while she…
Michiru faced her reflection. “I’m old.”
Haruka’s brow furrowed. “What?”
“I’m old.”
Haruka laughed, though not unkindly. “If we’re old now, we’re gonna be ancient in a few years.”
“I will. You’ll be fine.”
“What?” Another laugh, this time with the slightest edge. “I look older than you.”
Michiru could not find the words respond. Haruka stuck her face in the mirror beside her.
“Soon I won’t even be able to call myself blonde.” She gave her hair a good-natured shake. “And Mina likes to say I’ve begun the slow morph from butch noodle to ravioli.”
Michiru met her eyes in the mirror. It was all true, in a strict sense, and yet…
“But it’s handsome on you. You look just as good, better even, than before. And I…”
“You’re beautiful, Michu.” Haruka took her gently by the shoulders and turned her so they faced each other. “You’re the most beautiful woman to ever live.” She smiled sheepishly. “I kinda like see you get older. For a long time I thought I wouldn’t get to.”
“Oh, Haruka.”
“I know, I know, but really.” She stroked her face with her thumb. “I wouldn’t want you looking younger. This is where we are now, and I like it.”
“You don’t think…” Michiru glanced back to the mirror. “You wouldn’t have me get anything?”
“God no.” Haruka kissed her on the forehead. “You’re perfect, Michu. And you won’t ever not be.”
“You’re very sweet,” she said, but she felt her spirits lift. “I’m sorry I’ve made us so late.”
“It’s okay, I was gonna sleep through most the show anyway. I’m so old, you know, I can’t stay awake anymore.”
Michiru laughed. “You’ve been old a very long time then.”
“I suppose I have.” Haruka grinned. “Though you know, if you’re worried about being late, we could go now. You’re more than beautiful enough already…”
“I’m going to put on my makeup, Haruka.”
“I figured as much, but it was worth a try. Someday you’ll believe me on that front, too.”
She kissed Michiru’s cheek and let her be. Michiru selected a lipstick with a lightness in her heart, a feeling that could never turn to stone.
This is my first birthday where I feel like I’m… not old, but so firmly into adulthood that I can feel I will get old, so it seems appropriate to reblog this