@ myself: don’t get comfortable with the rapid improvement stage at the beginning of new things, that goes away quick and you gotta be prepared to work at it without immediate achievements
Author: sittingoverheredreaming
if you’re still taking requests, 11 for Haruka/Michiru?
I hope you see this since it’s so late, anon, I’m sorry!
11) Their favorite family traditions
This is an interesting one. For the most part, neither of them brings a lot of traditions into the relationship. They build new ones as they build their family.
Haruka’s favorite is probably staying up the night before their daughter’s birthday, to remember all the fear she had when Michiru went into labor, and how lucky she is to be on the other side of it and have all she does. Michiru doesn’t even know she does it for years, she sits so quietly for once in her life, only moving to walk between their bedroom and their daughters. (As she gets older, Haruka sits outside the bedroom door. She doesn’t want to be weird about it, but she needs to be close.)
Haruka also loves the tradition of throwing back a red bull the next morning (butch habits die hard) and calling out of work. She can’t work on her daughter’s birthday! (She also calls her daughter out of school for as long as she can get away with it, which goes right up to about middle school.)
Michiru has a harder time connecting ritual to feelings. The Kaiohs are, on the whole, cold in their polished veneer, so she is drawn to spontaneity over tradition when it comes to family.
Except, I think, the one tradition Haruka brings with her.
“Are we going to tell the kid there’s a Santa Claus?” Haruka asked, rubbing Michiru’s feet as the snow came down outside. They had not put up a tree, but Haruka had insisted on stringing up lights and holly. Just because we don’t like holidays doesn’t mean the baby won’t, she’d said, placing a kiss above Michiru’s belly button.
“I should think not.” Michiru stretched, unable to find a comfortable position. “I don’t agree with my parents on much, but I think they were right to think Santa Claus is a gawdy and materialistic concept.”
Haruka laughed. “And god forbid anyone think the family at the top of the Forbes list is materialistic.” Michiru threw a pillow at her. She caught it. “I didn’t grow up with Santa Claus either. My mom always said Santa was too busy for kids like me, but if I wrote down one wish and was real good, an elf might come grant it.” She leaned back. “I always figured I just hadn’t been good enough, but I wished for impossible things.”
“Are you going to write a wish this year?”
“I might.” Haruka resumed her foot rub. “Things like that are hard to let go of, you know?”
Late that night, after Haruka had fallen asleep, Michiru went back out to the living room. Haruka no longer got up every time she did, on Michiru’s insistence that one of them, at least, should get sleep before the baby came. She found where Haruka had left her written wish tucked under one of their wedding photos on the mantle.
I wish to have a beautiful, romantic Christmas with my wife.
Michiru smiled and chose to think it was pregnancy hormones that brought tears to her eyes. She stepped outside with her phone.
“Yes, Rei, I know it’s late, I need your help. No, no, the baby’s not coming. I just need a tree. A Christmas tree. Yes I know it’s Christmas Eve. Are you going to make a pregnant woman wander the cold streets alone? Yes, see you soon.”
They spent most of the night decorating. The weariness weighed on Michiru like a second pregnancy, but her heart was light. In the morning, Haruka padded out and stopped short. “What is this?”
“I wanted to show you you’ve been more than good enough.” Michiru said, using all her strength to get up from her chair. “I wanted to make your wish come true.”
“Oh Michi,” Haruka scooped her up in her arms. “It was always going to come true, so long as you were here. I’ve learned how to wish since I was a kid.”
“I would move heaven and earth for you, love.” She held her tight. “I’m going to make your wish come true every year, and our baby’s too.”
“Good luck on that one. We’ll have so many ponies.”
“We can afford a few ponies.”
“I thought we didn’t want our kid to be materialistic?”
“This is different. We can grant one wish.” She teared up again. “I never want either of you to feel like you aren’t good enough. I don’t care what it takes.”
What it took, it would turn out, was a lot of creativity to meet a child’s whimsical desires, but Michiru kept her promise every year.
You ever hear a song and just think “wow this would be perfect in a jukebox musical featuring a lesbian ensemble cast comprised primarily of butches?”
Last post about it for now, I promise.
I don’t really know what to do now. The hospital visit probably isn’t going to change anything, except for that my wife missed another day of work and is probably going to quit. And maybe they should quit! Going to work has been making them miserable. (And that is really hard to swallow for me, but it’s clearly harming them more than the usual, so, ????) I want to be supportive, but we’ve tried having them not work. It has also been bad! I’m starting to think there are no good options, and I don’t know what to do with that. Working at least meant they had fewer opportunities to harm themselves. There have been days when they don’t have a job where I make them come to my work and sit in the car all day because I’m too afraid to let them be alone. But both jobs they’ve tried post-college have spiraled into ER visits. Voluntary, but still. But before they had this job, they made an attempt on taking pills, they just changed their mind in time so no damage was done. It seems like nothing works, and there’s stuff beyond circumstance but. They take their meds they do therapy. I convinced them to try a hotline the other day. I don’t know what else to do.
And I really can’t do anything, and that’s hard on me. I mean, I can do a lot, but it’s all momentary happiness. Holding them or bringing them flowers or making them a stupid farce of a wedding cake makes them smile but then it’s gone, they can’t hold onto it. The big stuff is so out of my hands, except for all the ways I can mess it up.
I know there’s no answer. It’s just hard.
Re: this morning, thank you everyone for your kindness
Also my wife still hasn’t been seen by a doctor because American healthcare is shiiiiiiiiiiiiit
I took my wife to the ER this morning, they haven’t taken any actions but they’re not doing well and nothing’s working, I’m sort of hoping they go inpatient this time. Any good thoughts you want to send are appreciated.
[insp] [requested by @docholligay]
OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOD OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOD IT IS MAGICAL
Love me harumichi (all the FLUFF)
Fluff, huh? 😉
Edit: I MEANT TO QUEUE THIS SO IT’S NOT UP WITH THE DAWN, BUT IT TURNS OUT HITTING ENTER ON TAGS WILL PUBLISH AN ASK. WHOOPS.
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A hundred eyes watched her. Claws. Fangs. Their voices combining to an unrecognizable din. Louder and louder. Were they calling out to her or screaming in fear? Michiru should not have come. Her own fear tore at her, rough as all their claws. She should go, run–
“What can I help you with today?”a woman asked. She wore a big smile and an apron with the shelter logo on it.
Michiru fought to compose herself. “My wife and I have been talking about getting a cat. I would like to surprise her, but I’ve never…”
“Adopted a cat?”
“Had any sort of pet at all.” Michiru pressed her lips together. “I worry this might be a mistake.”
The worker nodded. “If you’re not ready, that’s okay. But why don’t we look at a few cats I’d recommend for first time owners, and discuss possible problems.” She grabbed a clipboard and led Michiru closer to the cages. “Now, do you own or rent your home?”
“I own it.”
“That’s good, we get a lot of animals coming back because of rental policies.” She checked something off. “What is your yearly income?”
“It is a bit gauche to discuss, is it not?”
The woman’s face went stern. “We like to ensure that you can cover vet bills. All our cats have had initial visits, shots, and are spayed or neutered, but it’s important to take them twice a year for check ups.”
“I see.” Michiru paused. “You have not asked my name.”
“I was getting there. Name and address are…” She paused, perhaps realizing Michiru bore a familiar face. “What is your name?”
“Michiru Kaioh.”
“Michiru Kai… oh.” She scribbled quickly. “Income won’t be an issue then, will it?” She set her clipboard aside. “Why don’t we move on? For you I’d recommend a cat between two and five, mild mannered and well trained. Are you more interested in long or short haired?”
“Either is fine.”
The woman showed her several cats, all with inane names like Mittens or Socks or, she swore upon her name, Kitty. They were all fine, perhaps too playful for Michiru’s taste, but that would please Haruka. She’d always wanted a cat, she’d said, ever since she was a little girl. Michiru could imagine tiny Haruka sitting alone in her room on bad nights, feeling things would be better if she only had a little friend. Michiru wanted to give her one now.
Yet she hesitated. These were creatures with raw and open needs, who would come into her home and claw up her curtains. And all she could think of was that they were fine.
The woman chattered away as she led Michiru to, she promised, better cats. One caught Michiru’s eye that she didn’t point out. It had long hair, brown peppered with grey, cut short and missing in a few places. It barely turned towards her as she looked, blue eyes pearlescent and unseeing.
“What about this one?”
The woman looked alarmed. “Oh, she’s a difficult one, older and very antisocial. She was found in the woods, we don’t know–”
“What risk is there of disease?”
“We’ve tested, and she’s clean, but–”
“I would like to hold her.”
The woman looked as though she might roll her eyes, but thought better of it. She opened the cage door.
Michiru reached in slowly. The cat gave a little start at her touch, but then turned its head to sniff her. “Hello,” Michiru said, refusing to do any infantile voices but feeling the drive to speak anyway. “I would like to meet you.”
The cat’s tail twitched as though to say Of course you would, but why should I meet you?
Michiru reached further and stroked its head between its ears, and when it stuck out its chin she moved down to it. It began to purr. She carefully scooped it into her arms.
“You’re a natural, it seems.”
“We just understand each other.” Two wild things, hurt by the world, waiting for something worthwhile to come along. Michiru had gotten hers in Haruka, and maybe this cat could get hers in…
Michiru was surprised to think of herself, rather than Haruka. “I would like to take her.”
*****
The sat at home together, Michiru on the couch and the cat on her lap. She had not yet thought of a name. Mittens and Socks and even Kitty did not seem so absurd now that the task was up to her.
She heard Haruka come in. “I’m in the living room,” she called. “With sort of a surprise.”
“I like surprises,” Haruka called back. Her feet pounded against the hardwood as she approached.
“The problem, love, is I went to get something for you and wound up with something for me.” She turned her head to look at Haruka. “Though I need you help naming her.”
Haruka laughed. “You got us a cat? Oh Michi–”
“I got me a cat. You just get to enjoy her company sometimes.”
The cat turned her head away from Haruka and twitched her tail. We’ll see about that.
Haruka sat down. The cat turned away again. Haruka laughed. “She’s particular, isn’t she?”
“She’ll come around, maybe.” Michiru petted along her back. The cat butted into her hand with her head. “She likes me, though.”
“You’re lucky.” Haruka kissed her cheek. “She reminds me of you, with me.”
Michiru chuckled. “I’m not sure that’s a compliment.”
Haruka shrugged. “We should name her Neptune.”
“We can’t name her after me.”
“Why not? Usagi named her human daughter after herself. And no one but the other senshi would know.”
“Yes, and it’s a good thing our closest friends aren’t fellow senshi.”
“Hey, she likes it, don’t you, Neptune.”
To Michiru’s great annoyance, the cat meowed. “Traitor,” she said.
“Welcome to the family, Neptune.” Haruka looped an arm around Michiru. Neptune began to purr. “I hope you like it here.”
I know this is late, but if you’re still taking prompts. “Get me” Michiru and Minako. Thanks!
Leave a “Get Me” in my ask, and I will write a drabble about a character saving another.
This is about 1300 words, I’m sorry it’s taken so long to get to!
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There was something quaint about bars at midday. Nightlife had always been more Mina’s speed, but the way the late morning sun hit her beer and made it look like gold glittering piss felt right. Life was a tall glass of piss, no matter how the sun shone or the birds chirped. No matter what you did.
The bartender handed her another drink as she drained hers down to the foam. They had an understanding, now. He didn’t ask questions, she tipped well and caused no trouble, he’d call her a cab at 4:30. Simple. Routine. She could live the whole rest of her life this way, aside from eventually running out of money.
The bell over the door rang. Minako added an additional caveat of finding a new bar.
Michiru had her purse in the crook of her elbow, hands gloved, long black coat belted like she’d just come from a 50’s film rendition of a funeral. She played the part of the widow well. Her low heels made small, elegant taps against the sticky wood floor.
“Did you have me followed?”
“Oh please.” She wiped a barstool with a handkerchief before sitting down. “You are not at your stealthiest right now.”
“Can’t imagine why.”
The bartender approached, and Michiru slid over a handful of large bills. “A water, please, and some privacy.”
He took the money and stuck to his policy of asking no questions.
“You don’t need to be here,” Minako said. “I’m not even getting drunk.”
“Mm.”
“I just want to be away from all of it. You of all people, I’d think, would understand.”
“I have had my losses, yes, but I cannot pretend they are the same as yours.”
Minako snorted. “Yeah, guess you never really loved her, huh?”
Their eyes met. Minako hoped for a slap, or maybe for Michiru to pull a knife on her, anything. All these years later, she understood all the fights Haruka had picked.
But Michiru merely adjusted her purse strap. “I’ll assume you mean our princess. That much is true.”
“Maybe if you had–”
“I might have died too? You’re not that lucky.”
“Lucky is the last word I’d use.” Minako took a long drink. “I thought you’d fall apart. I really thought you’d, I don’t know, run away to Europe and get so wine-drunk you forget she’s gone.”
“And I thought you’d bury it all under party drugs and fruity drinks.”
“I do seem the type.” She rotated her glass between her hands. “That’s the kicker, though, isn’t it? I can’t do that. As long as there’s a Serenity, the thing inside me won’t let me. And it’s not even Venus. It’s whatever anchor was sown into her soul, and neither of us can unchain ourselves from it.”
“I do not often think of my lot in life as a blessing,” Michiru said. “But I will take every misfortune over the loyalty clause of the inner guard.”
“Yeah, thanks.” Minako leaned back, hooking her foot under the bar top to keep from tipping. “I loved her for more than that, you know.”
“I do.”
“The crystal should have brought her back. It should have brought them all back.”
“The crystal has never been kind. That, I’ll give credit, all came from Usagi.”
“And look where it got her!” Mina let herself fall, let her shoulder hit the floor hard and her hair mix in with the stickiness and peanut shells. “All the talk of loving us, and she let Haruka and Rei and Ami die for nothing because she thought she could just talk it out. And now she’d dead, and the crystal pulled this bullshit.”
For awhile, it had seemed like their choices and triumphs and failures would matter. Their future could dissolve in an instant. Chibiusa had faded out of reality once. But when it came down to it, the crystal had picked a shortcut to its heir. It cared only that it had a Serenity, not which one. Mina pounded her fist on the floor. “Nothing means anything.”
“Perhaps you are suited for Small Lady’s guard, acting so much like a child.”
“Perhaps you’re suited for a life of loneliness, cold as you are.”
“Perhaps I am.” She rose. “I merely came to deliver a letter. I will leave it here.”
She stepped on Mina’s hair as she exited. Mina could not tell if it was on purpose. The bell over the door jingled again. Mina sat up, wincing at how her clothes clung to the floor. It had felt so good to let go, though. She wanted to let go so badly.
She eyed the envelope on the table. Michiru had left it facedown, but Minako knew who it came from based on the tape over the seal.
She turned it over. For Mina, if Michiru lives, but Rei and Usagi don’t
“Oh, buddy.” Tears stung her eyes as she began to read.
You always say I should think things through more, so I tried really hard, I hope you’re proud of me. I wanted to prepare for the possible outcomes, and you’ll probably find things I didn’t think of–
“None of us would ever think of this.”
–but hopefully I do alright. And don’t go looking through the rest of the letters! Not right away, at least. I put that in Michiru’s letter, too, so make sure she doesn’t. I know you don’t like each other, but that’s why I have to write. I want you two to try for each other. I don’t want to think too highly of myself, but I think I mean a lot to both of you–
“You mean the world, Haruka.”
So if I’m gone, you both might hurt. And I know you’re not gonna take loss well, as a soldier or a friend.
“And I’m sure you’d take it great.”
But whatever happened, it wasn’t your fault. You know I’m a dumbass, I probably broke your plan and charged in.
“You did.”
And if I know Rei, she tried to hard to save Usagi, and Usagi couldn’t be saved. We’re all predictable, I think, besides you. I never made a letter for if you didn’t make it. You’re too smart. If you went, I think the world would end.
But it hasn’t and you haven’t, so I’m passing a mission on to you. You gotta try, for Michiru. I love you both more than anything, and you’ve lost a lot. I wish more than anything I could always be there for you, but well. Like I said. Predictable. I don’t have Michiru’s visions, but I see how likely it is you’ll have to get one of these letters one day. So I’m asking you and Michiru to be there, in my place. You don’t have to be friends, really. Just annoy each other into keeping going.
You’re about to say, ‘Imagine if I asked that of you and Rei?’
Mina smiled through tears. She had been.
I have, and I think a few houses would get burnt down, but we’d find a way for you. So you’ll find a way for me. And for Rei, and for Usagi. We love you. I love you. You’ve done a lot for me, you’ve always known when I needed a kick in the ass, or a good brownie, and I want to return the favor. You’re too good to let this destroy you.
“You’re the one who’s too good, buddy.”
Also, a selfish request— sometime, not too soon, but sometime, wingman for Michiru, so she finds someone new. But make sure it’s not Seiya. Anyone else is okay.
I love you, and I’m sorry I didn’t listen to whatever order you gave. I’ll always be your dumb best friend.
Yours,
Haruka
“You’re such an asshole. You no I can’t say no if you pull this shit.” She carefully folded the letter and held it against her chest. She kept it there all the long walk to the house Haruka and Michiru had shared.
Michiru looked suspicious, but not surprised, when she answered the door.
“Haruka’s letter said you had to give me a thousand bucks.”
“Is that so?” Michiru crossed her arms. “My letter said ten thousand.”
Their eyes met again, wet and raw. Michiru stepped aside and gestured for Minako to come in. It didn’t change anything, except for all the ways it did.
I’ve been going through trying to tag all my stuff so it’s more findable for anyone coming to my blog, and it is way more time consuming than expected.
BUT. HaruMichi stuff (primarily original content, but some reblogs) is tagged as #HaruMichi through February 2015.
Various other things are tagged through June 2016. Characters are first names (ie. Haruka, Makoto, Setsuna, ect.) except for #Queen Beryl and #Galaxia. (and technically the starlights, because #kou could mean any of them)
Pairings include #Reinako, #Seiusa, #Brotp (meaning Mina and Haruka), #Michiru and Rei, #Haruka and Mako, and #Brot3 (Haruka, Mina, Mako).
Groups are #Starlights (this one gets the most use), #inners and #outers
I also made the tag #rework thoughts, which is for stuff that is more tweaks than AUs, stuff that if I were to ever rewrite all or part of SM, I would use.
And #wife post, for anyone who wants receipts on me being sappy.





