Sorry I’ve been so inactive, job whining below the cut
Lately I’ve felt like I’m just… treading water with job stuff. For a while I really believed I was moving up, but it was all false assumptions (that I would get a raise, that the company would have good policies, that my coworkers were able to live comfortably because of their jobs and not in spite of them).
I’m in a spot of a lot of privilege, for a handful of reasons, but ultimately none of them make up for income, and that’s besides how unhappy my job makes me. And I don’t know what to do, because nothing seems any better. More school would just mean debt, and my existing job prospects are just what I do now, or retail (I would love retail, honesty, if it were more humane. But as I discussed with my wife, my current job makes me very unhappy, but allows me to take care of myself, while retail made me happy but prevented care (sleep, planning more than a few days ahead, etc) so it made me more depressed.)
And it’s not a unique problem to me, but like. My wife and I are thinking about a kid, and it’s honestly almost impossible with where we’re at. And that’s so devastating? I just feel so trapped. I’m trying to pursue more things, in finally trying to learn to code, I’m applying to jobs still and I’m looking at stupid internet side gigs, and it all just makes me feel worse. And I know it’s hard on my wife, because they can’t work right now, and they feel guilty, and ugh.
I just want jobs to be fair, and nothing really is. And that’s life, but, you know. I’m a whiny millennial.