This  k i l l s  me because ostensibly, Haruka is afraid because this girl has been in her dreams about the literal end of the world. But with how the rest of the episode plays out, I don’t think it’s actually what she’s scared of. I think Haruka WANTS to save the world. She aches for goodnesss. She aches to be able to have that one good thing she sees in herself. (How tragic that when she gets it it twists into just another reason to hate herself for a while.)

She’s afraid of Michiru, not Neptune. I think she knows that whatever happens, this girl is going to change her world. I don’t believe in knowing right off when you’ve found ~the one~, but I think sometimes you really do feel when someone’s going to have an impact on you. And that can be scary, especially when you’re seeped in self-hatred and can’t conceive of someone loving you.

And Michiru is already vulnerable with Haruka, she’s letting herself be open for pain and rejection because she’s already so entranced. What choice does she have but to be brave? To chose her desires for once in her life, rather than live fitfully with regret.

THEY’RE BOTH TERRIFIED. THEY’RE BOTH GONNA LOOK BACK ON THIS MOMENT AND WONDER HOW THEY EVER GOT TO HAPPINESS FROM HERE.