the good news: I’m at a point where I can be ~comically angry~ about gender stuff, it’s not bad handling it when I’m not taking myself so seriously. it’s actually kind of funny.

the bad news: I HAVE BEEN LOCKED IN A BATTLE WITH GENDERFEELS FOR DAYS. WHAT IS THIS SHIT. NO I’M NOT GOING TO RECONSIDER THIS WHOLE NOT A WOMAN THING JUST BECAUSE I HEARD THE SONG “GIRLS LIKE GIRLS” AGAIN AND GOT REALLY NOSTALGIC FOR THE LABEL LESBIAN. WHAT THE HELL, GENDER? IF I DON’T GET OFF THE HOOK FOR DYSPHORIA WHAT WOULD BE THE POINT. WHY. 

(on a mildly more serious note it’s gotten me on the “well why couldn’t I be a woman who binds” thought which i guess is probably a point to actually consider, although that’s not the whole of it)