This scene hurts so much.

I’m definitely still interpreting it as she slept with him (though I absolutely support people who see it differently; teach me your ways because that’d hurt so much less).

The thing here is, Mako’s not nervous. She’s doing her best to appear casual, but she’s happy. She believes senpai loves her; she has no reason in the world to think he’ll say no. She probably thinks they’re dating. They never said they were, but he was so nice and they did things and how could they not be together?

But now he has a girlfriend.

Didn’t he tell her?

No, he forgot her. He used her and forgot her and found a real girlfriend. 

Was I fooled? Makoto asks after this flashback. She believed he loved her so much. I think she still believed he loved her even after this. He just fell out of love or she did something wrong or he just fell more in love with the other girl. Of course he loved her. Makoto has to believe that.

And the realization that maybe he didn’t crushes her. If they could do those things without love, what even is love? And if he didn’t love her, then has anyone loved her since her parents’ death? Maybe no one ever will. Maybe no one will ever see past her rough exterior.

But that’s not true either. Usagi is there, Usagi has seen how lovely Makoto is, Usagi will love Makoto with all her heart, and the others will too. And that’s all Makoto needs. Just a little love, a little support, someone to tell her, for the first time in years, that she’s wonderful.